We drive for a few minutes before she turns onto the bridge over the Indian River, but instead of crossing over the bridge she slows and pulls onto a side road parallel to the bridge. She parks and gets out of the car and comes around to the passenger side to open the door for me, "Follow me" she says before grabbing my hand and leading me under a brush area that is shaped almost like a cave. We sit down shoulder to shoulder and I just lean my head on her and revel in the perfect view of the river before us "I love you" I blurt out. I immediately go to cover my mouth with my hand as if that would take back the heavy words I just spoke. I lift my head from her shoulder and just look at her, stunned and with nothing to say. She smiles lightly and pushes my hand away from my mouth and puts it on her thigh before covering my hand with her's. She softly kisses my lips and says "I love you too. Now come on, I want to show you something". I have never told anyone I loved them not even my parents, at least not since I was 4 years old, I am just so shocked that the words came so easily to me. She looks back at me and says "What are you waiting for?" And bends down reaching for my hand. She helps me to stand up then laughs before hugging me and giving me a small kiss. "Don't be so scared of loving someone or something, it's the whole point of life. I've been where you are and it's terrifying but we'll navigate these waters together, quite literally. Now come I want to show you something you will definitely love maybe as much as me." she ends her speech with a reassuring smile. I follow her to the river, she takes off her jacket and shorts, then takes my hand "Come on in the water. It's not cold, it's already April." Against everything my parents believe in I take off my shirt and shorts and follow her into the river, almost bare. She wades around into deeper water, and reaches out for my hand. "You like the stars, right?" I follow her as she lays on her back just floating, "The view is perfect from the river. Just look up" I do as she says, and I am once again stunned by beauty. I look to the side and give a small gasp "Skye, look!" and point to the water, standing up as I do so. It's glowing a dark blue. "I've heard about the bioluminescence before but I've never seen it!" She looks at me and smiles "I knew you'd like that". The way she is lit up minimally underneath the light of the stars and the glowing water makes everything feel so perfect. It isn't too dark nor too bright, and I can see her just enough to know how much I want her in my life. I wade over to her and take her hand and pull her up to a standing position. I place my hands around her neck as her hands go to my waist and I stand on my toes to kiss her. She lifts me slightly so we can kiss easier. This is what heaven is, I don't want anything or anyone else in the world besides her. Her silhouette underneath the night sky is the most wonderful thing my eyes could ever see. Once we pull away she says "Come over here I want to show you something" she leads me to the sand and dries her hand on a towel. She turns her phone on and types in the passcode then starts playing music. "I made this. I noticed you sang to the songs I played in my car, so I made us a playlist" I run over to her so quickly that she doesn't have time to react. I press my lips against hers as soon as I'm close enough and I pull her into my arms and say "I love you more than anything" and once again we just hold each other so long we forget about anything, even the passing of time.
When reality hits me I ask, "Hey, what time is it?". "A little past 3. Are you ready to go home?". I sigh, I don't want this to end but if my parents catch me I'll be screwed. "Yeah, I guess its time". The ride home is peaceful with her hand on my thigh and the glorious sound of our music. Our music. That single phrase makes me realize just how much she means to me. Is what I'm doing wrong? I don't want to keep my biggest secret from her, I am just so scared of losing her. Even the slightest chance of her leaving me isn't worth confessing the truth. She pulls onto the side of my neighbor's drive way and turns the car off. She rubs my thigh, sensing my anxiety. "Blake, you know I'm always going to be here. No matter what." I give a light sigh, hoping she means it. I kiss her hoping this moment will never end. "I meant what I said. I love you Skylar, more than words could describe". She smiles and says "I love you too. Tonight was wonderful, and I can't wait to see you tomorrow." When she pulls away I look down in disappointment. "Blake, what's wrong?". I sigh "I don't want to lose you. Even saying goodbye is hard, what if I never see you again?" She hugs me tightly and says "I promise that won't happen. You better go inside or your parents might know you snuck out with your girlfriend." I nod and laugh, wiping a stray tear away. I lean over the middle console and kiss her cheek before opening the car door and walk into my house. I really do love her, and it's my worst nightmare to lose her... literally. I wave as she drives off and the sinking feeling returns. I climb into my room and take my medication so I can drift off into a deep sleep and hopefully peaceful sleep
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Walking on a Tightrope
RomanceWhen Blake Thompson discovers she is a lesbian, she goes to her seventh grade "crush" for help. He is gay, but closeted, so she makes a deal with him; They date so nobody finds out either of them are gay. But what will become of this? Will they keep...
