She grabs my hand and leads me to the back yard. "Why are you always the one doing the surprising?" I ask. She chuckles and says "Because I can. And I love to see the smile on your face" I smile at those words, making her smile grow even bigger. "Just being with you is enough to make me smile." I admit. We both blush being the awkward women we are. You can see the beach from her backyard, but unfortunately her yard is blocked off from it so we aren't able to actually visit the beach. She leads me to the outside corner of her house where a ladder stands bolted to the wall. She grabs hold of the ladder and climbs to the roof. Once she reaches the top she holds out her hand and reaches toward me. "Come on up here" She smiles. I love her smile more than anything, and could stare at it all day. I begin climbing up the ladder. Once I step off the ladder safely and stand on the roof I gasp and pull my hand over my mouth in surprise. I begin to cry. When I collect myself I run over to Skylar and wrap my arms around her. "I love you so much for this". She holds me in her arms. In this moment, I want nothing more than her. Nothing more than her touch, her scent, the feeling of her arms wrapped around my waist and the way she seems to say the right words at the right time.
In front of me there is a large blanket spread out across the roof of her house. On it lays a pizza box propped open with a heart shaped pizza laying inside of it. Next to it lay a bottle of wine. "You even remembered my favorite kind of pizza" I cry out. She rushes over to me and holds me in her arms. "How could I ever forget something that comes out of your beautiful mouth?" she laughs a little before leaning in to kiss me. She continues with "No. In all seriousness, how could I ever forget such a unique preference? I ended up getting a Half kiwi pizza and half regular cheese that way we both get what we love: pizza and each other." She holds me tighter. "now come sit down with me, let's eat. It looks delicious." She pauses "My side does at least." She laughs even more. I playfully yell at her "Hey! Kiwis are great! You'll have to try it when you kiss me after" I snicker. She swats at me and says "ewwww that's disgusting. But nothing could taste too bad in your mouth." we both have a tendency to get carried away in our jokes which is one of my favorite things about her. When I'm with her, I feel so free and alive. There is such a huge difference between surviving and living. After a few hours of sitting on the roof we have eaten half of the pizza and had a cup or two of wine and are relaxing on the roof while holding each other like our arms are twisted into knots keeping us from parting. The sun has begun to set and I have never seen or felt anything as beautiful as this moment. I'm not sure if it's the wine or my fear of losing her that makes me do this but I untangle myself from her grip and pin her to the ground. I begin to kiss her so roughly and passionately that she knows where I am going with this. She pushes me away for a brief moment and asks "Are you sure?" I respond by kissing her . She takes it as a yes and our hands begin to explore each other's bodies while we revel in our love for one another.
Once we both finish we lie on our backs staring up at the beautiful stars gasping for breath, just like a week ago when we first kissed each other. Things have happened so quickly that its terrifying. We get up, get dressed and I help Skye clean the set up she made on the roof of the house. While we clean I ask "Do you think you could drive me home? You only had a glass and its been a few hours." She answers clearly without delay further proving my point. "Yeah, of course! Your parents will probably be pissed you were out so late." she winks. I sheepishly reply "Yeah.... You know parents they hate their kids being out alone with their significant other." I begin to realize she truly thinks my parents know about us. Once everything is cleaned up, I get into her car and she begins to drive. I hope she doesn't pick up on how awkward the air between us has become. I don't want her to think it was her, because what we did... was amazing. But I have dug myself so deep into a hole I can't get out. All I can do is hope that I can keep the hole from getting bigger until it fills itself in once I move away from this town. I awkwardly say "So... Prom is in 2 weeks. Will you still come with me?" I want her to say yes so badly because going to prom with her would be a dream but I'm secretly hoping she'll say no. If she says no I can continue to keep my two lives separate until it's safe to combine them.
"Yeah, of course I will Blake. You never have to ask. I'll meet you there at 8, I want you to be surprised." She smiles her beautiful and intriguing smile. "Expect the same." I lean over the middle console and kiss her cheek. After another few minutes of driving she parks a few houses away from my own."Tonight was amazing and I hope the future holds more moments like these." I get out of the passenger seat and walk around to the drivers seat to kiss her on the lips. "I love you Skye." She smiles at the words that have left my lips. "I love you too Blake, you have my contact information if you need anything. You know we'll talk later. I had so much fun tonight and haven't felt this relaxed in ages" My expression begins to become solemn as I walk further and further away from her. The longer the distance between us the stronger my fears become. Anytime I am away from her it is like she is a huge magnet pulling me in and attracting me to her as if all I need in this world is her. I begin to walk along the sidewalk and wave goodbye to Skylar. After a few minutes of walking I reach my doorstep, when I check the time I realize it's almost 10:00 PM and if my parents find out they'll be pissed. I decide to go in through the front door because climbing in and out of my window is hard enough during the day, let alone in the dark when I'm running on a small amount of sleep. All the lights appear to have been turned off and with the little I can see through the window it doesn't seem like my parents are awake. I slowly turn the door knob of the front door to open it. Right as I do the lamp in the living room begins to glow and I see both of my parents sitting at the couch facing the door way. I stop at a stand still in the doorway as I try to think of an excuse for staying out so late. "Blake, where have you been?" My mom asks, desperation and anxiety clear in her voice. I know hesitation usually signifies a lie so I go with the first thought that comes to my mind. "I was with Tucker." Thinking that explanation was enough I begin to walk towards my room. As I walk down the hallway connecting my room to the living room I see that on the couch opposing the one my parents are sitting on with its back to the wall next to the door, Tucker lies there, asleep.
"What's going on Blake?" my mom yells. My heart drops in my chest. Fuck
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Walking on a Tightrope
RomansaWhen Blake Thompson discovers she is a lesbian, she goes to her seventh grade "crush" for help. He is gay, but closeted, so she makes a deal with him; They date so nobody finds out either of them are gay. But what will become of this? Will they keep...
