I wake up to buzzing. I turn over and see Skylar's name pop up. I answer and say "What time is it?". She laughs and said "That's what I'm calling you about. It's 8:15, you have 15 minutes to get dressed and meet me outside or we'll be late." I groan and say "Okay... Sorry I'm just a little tired." Even when she is being stern, she sounds so sweet. I don't think I could ever say no to her. I get up and am ready in 10 minutes and running out the door to see her car parked in front of my house and her sitting on the hood. I run over to her, look around to see if anybody is near me, then wrap my arms around her and kiss her. Her legs wrap around my waist and I lift her off the hood of the car and onto the ground. Against her lips I say "I love you so much". She pushes me away regretfully "Let's go or we'll be late!" and gets into the driver's seat. I climb into the passenger side and she starts driving.
'Insane, inside, the danger gets me high. Cant help myself, got secrets I can't tell. I love the smell of gasoline I like the match to taste the heat, I've always liked to play with fire.'
I turn up the music and feel as the base blares "Play with fire" by Sam Tinnez. She looks over at me and grins, knowing what's about to come next. We start singing the song together as I dance in my seat as much as I can with the restriction of the seat-belt.
'Mmm right of passage classic maverick. Match in the gas tank ooh that's wretched. Unstoppable legendary animals, digital justice Now you're gonna know us Hail to the king and queen of the ruckus, Yacht Money wired no denying. I've always liked to play with fire"
The rest of the drive goes this way with different songs as we sing them at the top of the lungs while her top is down and I smell the salty air. There is no place I'd rather be, and that's never going to change. She eventually pulls into the parking lot of the beach where we get out of the car and grab our things. Once we have everything and begin walking to the beach I yell out "Race you!" and begin running to the beach at top speed. She yells back "Hey that's not fair!" the rest of the day goes on like the others. We playfully tease each other as we surf and talk and sometimes kiss. This is all so wonderful but terrifying. I've never felt this way before and I have no idea what it might do to me. What it might do to us. I deeply and truly love her and I just know she feels the same. Noon rolls around and we all meet at the shore to say our goodbyes. Skye heads over to the instructor where they discuss the day's events and Tucker takes this chance to come and talk to me.
"You know I don't agree with what you're doing, but as your friend and 'Boyfriend' I'll support you regardless because I know there is no keeping you away from her. Just don't forget that you made this deal and you'll be stuck with the consequences. I'm going to head out, have fun with her because before you know that she can be ripped away from you just as quickly as she came." and before I know it he is gone, disappearing in what feels like a cloud of anger. While waiting for Skye to finish up I think about what he said, he's right. One small move and I could lose her. I didn't realize I was staring out into space until Skylar puts her hand on my shoulder and asks "What's wrong?" There is no hiding from her so I stand on my toes and look around before grabbing her face in my hands and kissing her. Once I pull away I just say "I don't ever want to lose you. I truly love you and I hope you'll stick with me through everyone."
"Blake you know I will. Where is this coming from, did something happen?" I sigh and say "uh, nothing major it's just a realization." She pulls me into a warm embrace and tells me "Nothing will change the way I feel about you" She pauses for a moment "Now, I want to show you something" she grabs my hand and leads me to her car. She starts to drive a little ways off the beach and into port Canaveral where a large tower stands. Right next to the tower is a seafood/sushi restaurant. "Come on, let's get lunch then we can go on up to the top of the tower and watch the launch." I almost forgot there was a launch today. "Isn't that kind of thing expensive? Plus we can just see it from the beach." She looks at me, assurance in her eyes "No, I know someone who is working today and he said he could get us in for free if we got there early enough." I reach across the middle console kiss her and say "I can't wait. Now lets get food!" God, I love this woman. We enter the restaurant and are sat down and order our food and drinks almost immediately. We spend the whole time just talking and laughing, sharing our gay awakening stories.
Skye begins by saying "I had no idea I was gay until a close friend of mine practically told me. I never considered it a possibility so I just didn't think of it until I broke up with my dick of a boyfriend and realized I liked girls. I thought I was bi until my friend straight up asked me if I only found feminine dudes slightly attractive and when I said yes they basically said "Yeah, you're gay" and suddenly everything in my life made sense. I pieced everything together and almost immediately came out to my friends and family. It just felt so right like I found the missing piece of my life. Nobody was surprised when I came out, but I sure as hell was" Skylar ends with a chuckle. I answer from the heart, "that must've been quite shocking! if you don't mind sharing, how did you come out to your parents?" I want to know what their reactions were because every day I am terrified of what will happen when I come out to my parents
"Isn't that a story to be told" she says before chuckling. "I did it on accident, which is a lot easier to do than you would think. My mom was driving me home after having my wisdom teeth removed and I was still pretty out of it from the drugs. She pointed out a sign in front of the vet by our house that said 'Neutered pets are less nuts" and all my dumbass could think to say was "Well I prefer neutered pets because I don't like manliness." and boy did my mom have my head. I didn't even have the chance to explain, she told me to wait until my dad got home to discuss it. When he arrived my mom accused me of being gay before having my dad kick me out as soon as the drugs began to wear off. It'd be hilarious if I weren't kicked out of my house or shamed for loving who I love. So how about you?"
I start to internally panic because I don't want to lie to her but she can't know I'm not out. I use all my strength to gain my composure before answering.
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Walking on a Tightrope
RomanceWhen Blake Thompson discovers she is a lesbian, she goes to her seventh grade "crush" for help. He is gay, but closeted, so she makes a deal with him; They date so nobody finds out either of them are gay. But what will become of this? Will they keep...
