Walking on a Tightrope

Chapter 23

knock. I cover my ears with a pillow. Knock Knock. With my face buried in my, the, pillow I groan. "Who's there and what do you want. Blake isn't here." I refrain from moving, I don't want to face reality yet. "Blake?" I spring up from my spot on Parker's bed and rub my eyes to make sure I wasn't hearing things. I burst into tears again. She rushes in and holds me as I continue to cry. I sob "You came back..." I cry into her arms. "Of course I did. How could I have left you here to cry? Your friend Parker came and got me. I'm so sorry, I should've waited for you to get the chance to explain what happened. I wish I could've heard it from you and not Parker. I'm here now and I'm not leaving again no matter how hard you try to get rid of me." I laugh through my tears. I bury my head in her chest. "Thank you" I sob "My parents disowned me." I continue to sob into her arms. She starts rubbing my arms as I cry. "I know how painful that is, my parents did the same. But you can never run from who you are. Being gay is a part of who you are, and that's okay. There is nothing wrong with loving who you love regardless of who that is. If your parents or friends don't accept you it's a problem on their part. All that matters is you stay true to yourself, regardless of what that is." After she finishes she kisses my head. "I missed you Blake, and I don't think I can ever leave you again." Once my tears slow and I calm down I release my grip on Skylar. I look at her and say "I knew from the moment I saw you who I wanted to be. You made me realize that being gay is ok and that as long as I love truthfully, there really can't be any greater happiness. I love you Skye, and I always will. I hope my past decisions won't affect our future together." I softly cry at the fear of her response. She answers by kissing my lips. "Of course it won't. This is direct of me to ask, but will you come live with me?" I look up to her and say "I thought you'd never ask." It doesn't take me too long to pack my things and haul them into Skylar's car as my parents did most of the work for me. When I walk out of Parker's house I see Tucker waiting in his car, parked behind Skylar. When he sees me he gets out of his car and walks up to me, his hands in his pockets, clearly nervous. "I'm sorry for being so hard on you Blake. I blamed it all on you when I had a part to play in Jessica finding out as well. I just needed some time to realize that. I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you when you needed me. I hope we can still be friends"I never thought I'd hear an apology from his lips. I hug him and say "Of course we can. You're my gay best friend" I playfully punch him in the shoulder. He winces and says "Would you stop doing that?" I laugh and say "Don't be such a wimp. I'm glad you came all this way to see me. I'll give you my new phone number whenever I get around to getting one. The past few months have been so crazy." I finish packing all my stuff into Skye's car and I get in. Skye gets into the driver's seat and I wave bye to Parker and Tucker. "I'll see you guys soon, you better not forget I exist. Bye fucker!" I yell, and as Skye drives away I can here him cursing me out. It's been a long journey, but I'm happy with where I ended up. The school year has ended and I'm starting a new chapter going into college, and I've accepted change is part of being human.

To everyone struggling with accepting who you are, no matter the reason, always remember that as long as you are truly yourself, anybody who defies you is in the wrong. Stay true to who you are and know I'll be here cheering you along. Life is painful, but all we can do to fight that pain is have support through it. My other social media will be in my description, feel free to reach out if you need anything. Good luck in your journey, 

                                                                                                                      -Luna