Hired |N.H|

-Chapter 53

Niall's POV

She had been asleep now for a while but I was not able to find sleep at all. Knowing this was probably our last night in bed together made me wanna cry so bad but I had to keep strong for her.

I told her this definitely wouldn't be our last night but how can I be sure of that? I know what Michael is like. I just told her because saying it might make myself believe it and that's what I needed.

I was a little mad she wouldn't let me pay for her college for I guess I can see where she's coming from. She wants to do this on her own and I love her, so I am gonna support that decision. Even though it means I am gonna lose her.

But as the saying goes, 'if you love someone, you let them go.'

I never understood that saying until now. I never understood why you would let someone you love go, but under this circumstance, I can highly relate to this one. I finally understand it.

I love her and I just want her to be happy, I don't care about myself to be honest.

I looked down at her and god, am I gonna miss this beautiful girl sleeping next to me. I mean, what the fuck am I gonna do?

I hate Michael so much. Why does he have to do this to us? Does he not want anybody to be happy at all?

I felt her shift slightly against me and even that sent tingle up my spine. God, the affect this girl has on me, how is it even precedented?

She asked me to take her virginity tonight. It took everything I had in me not to rip off all her clothes and stick my face in her boobs. It nearly made my dick hard just thinking about it but I couldn't do it. I had to think of her.

I knew if we slept together it would make things ten times harder and I couldn't have that. She doesn't understand what it would do to us.

It would make it harder for me too, like jesus if I slept with her I would probably fall harder for her, if that's even possible and then we'd just be craving each other so yep, it'd make things harder. So sex was out of the question for us.

She does have bad timing, doesn't she?

I kissed the top of her head and tried to fall asleep. Though tonight, sleep was unattainable for me.

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I did finally sleep at some stage but I was awake early again. I didn't move though. I just held Jenny while she slept.

Then, at half nine her eyes opened slightly.

"Morning." I quietly said, pushing hair out of her face behind her ear. She smiled and stretched her hands over her head, then after a few seconds the smile sudddenly vanished, probably at the remembrance of last night.

I reached down and kissed her. She pushed me away, pressing the palm of her hand on my lips with a small smile. "Go brush your teeth before you kiss me. " She said, making me laugh. I just kissed her hand.

"Come on." I laughed.

"Brush your teeth, then you can kiss me." She giggled. I rolled my eyes but detatched myself from her body and went and brushed my teeth. I tried not to think this could be our last real kiss for a while.

I rubbed my hand over my face and looked up at the ceiling, trying not to cry. Gosh, I am such a baby this morning.

I put on a smile and went back to bed with her. Though I didn't lie beside her. I held myself up on top of her instead. "All clean." I clamped my teeth together and showed her my full smile.