Burnt [Supernatural] #Wattys2015

Habits

Song for the chapter: Habits (Stay High) by Tove Lo

 I realized after picking the song, and Eliza's habits, it is very ironic...
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Bobby leaned against the wall, while the brothers sat on the couch. I took residence on the chair. I sighed, knowing that they were going to ask questions.

"So, I suppose I should start with the fact that I've lied a lot to you two." I kept my eyes trained on the old carpet, "I'll start with Jace. He's my step dad... Also known as 'a family friend' who is a douche. He left my mother a few years after Coraline was born. She was 8 when he left."

"That means you were twelve-" I heard Dean.

"That was a lie. Yes, I hurt. And then I realized I couldn't hurt for long because I needed to help support my family. My mom was working extra shifts, and Coraline was hurting. Jace just up and left," I looked at Bobby. He had this look that said he knew something, "You know something, Bobby. What is it?"

He sighed, "What's Jace's last name?"

"Deiniger. Why?"

Bobby looked me in the eyes, "Your father didn't just leave. He was a hunter. He is a hunter. I was the one who told him to come help me. He turned your mother into a hunter, and I told him to leave. He could've ended up killing all of you."

I looked at him, "Well, he almost did. Three years after he left, Jace came back. He was convinced something had taken over our family and almost killed us! I don't know what, but he almost killed me. And my mother. But, when it came to Coraline. He hesitated. And he ran again. After that, I became that party animal. I drank and partied. I got high with different drugs. The hard stuff. I even cut.  I just gave up. I rebelled in my own way. That's where Jeremy came in. When Osiris was bringing up witnesses, Jeremy was one of my friends. We were at a party. Both of us were drinking, and we wanted to go home. He told me I could drive. I did. Somehow I ended up driving the car off a bridge. I got myself out, but didn't think about getting him out." I sighed... That wasn't it, "I think after that, I was done with the stupid shit for leaving my family at home. I got a job, helped take care of Coraline... And even got all of my AP classes again. I had a free ride to college. What a bad time to have all this happen."

Sam looked at me, "Why was Coraline a witness?"

I stayed silent for a minute, and felt my tears prick my eyes, "Because I feel like I couldn't save her. I feel like it's my fault. I couldn't-"

Dean and Sam both looked at me like I was crazy, "It wasn't your fault. Yes, she died. But, you couldn't have done anything to save her." Dean spoke flat out.

I gasped, and Sam shouted at his brother, "Dean!"

"No, you're right. I couldn't. But it doesn't mean I couldn't've tried." I was done telling my story, "Now I can go find Jace. Bobby, do you know where he was last?"

Bobby sighed, "He was here a few weeks ago. If I knew his step daughter would show up, I would've made him stay."

When Bobby said he'd been here, a spark of hope rose in my body. I could find him.

"You're not going to find him by yourself." Dean crushed my hopes.

I glared at him, "Who's to tell me I can't? You went to find John by yourself. Well, with Sam, but I can if I want to."

"Eliza-"

I looked at him, "No, Dean. You can't stop me."

Dean got a hurt smirk on his face, "How are you gonna drive there?"