Louder Than Words

Chapter 36

- Friday: Day 3 of shooting -

Andrea: Are you sure you want to do this

Me: I don't know anymore

Andrea: Its so weird that you still like him

Me: It's not weird it's just I don't even know its like I might not like him and just think he's cute but I honestly am so confused

Andrea: If anything just get the scene over with and then pretend like it was all acting

Me: It is acting

Andrea: Partial

Me: What

Andrea: You have done it with him before so it's not like it's new

Me: Andrea, your not helping

All of a sudden, our conversation is cut off by the director calling my name, I reply by heading in the direction of the changing room, as I was told to do.

Maria (my stylist): Here wear this

Me: Wheres the rest of the outfit?

I ask as I hold out a bra and tiny underwear

Maria: Don't worry, you won't be showing your underwear in the scene it'll be under the blanket love oh and wear his shirt over your torso

Me: Thank you

I answer back sarcastically.

I put on my delicates and sit while I wait for them to call me once again. I look my reflection in the mirror. Why am I doing this to myself?

'Just get it over with, like ripping off a band-aid' I think to myself.

'but then again, there's no pain at all if you just let it soak in a hot tub and fall at its own pace.'

Sadly there is no tub in this scene. Just Me, Nick, the bed, and a love song.

In the script, I read that all I have to do is look sexy while Nick kisses my neck and is on top of me. His hands will be holding me and my hands will be rubbing him all over his back. It's not that bad.

- Saturday 11:00 am -

Interviewer: Have any of you ever had a near death experience?

Me: About two or three times

Andrea: What

Me: One of them was a car accident and the other one was the one too but the car was going up the ramp and there was a sharp turn and my grandma, under panic, put the car in neutral and my first instinct was to look back for any cars and luckily there were none. My grandma couldn't find the brake but she turned the wheel so we hit the wall and stopped. And then I went to dance.

Interviewer: Well I'm glad to have you here with us today, both of you. You were really born lucky

Andrea: Thank you!

We leave the radio station interview and run home (not literally).

Me and Andrea had to get ready for Niall's birthday party, we would meet him at a bar for some pints and then go home and chill for a while.

I asked Maria to straighten my hair because I can't do it, sadly.

"Did you like how the video came out?" She asks while gently stroking my hair with the iron

"I'm super nervous, I want to see it tonight with the boys and Andrea."

"Don't be, it came out really well and a whole lot better than I had expected."