Louder Than Words

Chapter 18

"I went to a small elementary, a public school. It was a school where all the teachers were nice, almost as it was one of the requirements to work there. Everyone was friends with the people in your grade level. Well it depends. The gifted/ advanced students got along and the advanced/regular students hung out. They never really had intensive classes because they didn't like the idea of stupid kids getting put into stupid classes to be called stupid"

"It sounds like a nice school" Liam cuts in

"Let her finish!"

"Well it is a nice school, and since I was in saber, which is basically smart Latinos where instead of taking regular classes, some classes where taught to you in Spanish. And my Spanish is alright but I only use it when I have to or when I talk to my parents. The kids in saber never really talked to other people, they just stuck with their classmates and our neighbors. They also had an after school program where they had 'Leaders' take care of kids after school while their parents work. Every year, since first grade I went. And my leader Ely, she loved me. I was always the quiet one but when I did talk I was funny or smart or something and well she loved me cause I was well behaved and the other people weren't. SOOOO I don't remember how I met Nick but I remember liking him from the first day I saw him. And I find it funny that i saw him as a tall fit guy. But later I found out he wasn't. Anyway I never talked to him the only time I did see him was when the boys decided to play football on the basketball courts, it was tag by the way. And I was usually the only girl that played and when I did play Nick would pick me on his team and that's when we talked. So I got to know him more and one of my friends at the moment was a second cousin of his so I had asked her to tell him that I liked him"

"AWWW. You were so shy!" Liam says grabbing my cheeks

"That's it?" Harry asks

"No. Obviously not."

"When do you guys start getting physical?"

"HARRY!" Liam says

"Soon" I whisper to Harry as I wink at him.

"I'm just going to sum up middle school. I'm 6th grade I only had math class with him and we would talk because the other people were smart and they acted smart. We were smart but we acted cool. In that class I found out we had a lot of things in common. We both LOVE Drake, well the same music and as we grew older we kept liking the same new music but without coincidence. We both loved sports and we got along well as all. And they had switched one of my classes later that year and Nick just happened to be in that class too. I bet if I were thinner back them he would have like me but I wasn't. I was fucking potato probably until 9th or 10th grade. In 7th grade they'd talk about how short and pudgy he was in 5th grade but I never saw him like that. I remembered him being taller than me or at least my height. And that year he got his girlfriend and they were the couple that was on and off all the time. Until well he left the school in 8th grade."

"Then how did you talk to him?!"

"Well up until 9th grade I liked him and never stopped. Every time I liked a guy I'd eventually get over him after about 1 or 2 months but with Nick it last 8 years. And then we met at my job at the waterpark."

"So how was it like dating him?" Harry says over excitedly.

"I don't think she'd like talking about it "

"I don't mind really. Well when we started he took me out to this restaurant where one of his friends worked at. It was nice and on that date we had out first kiss. Actually it was kind of cheesy." flash backs of our old relationship stated to appear in my head. "He uhm, dropped me off at my house, and he told me how beautiful I've always been to him and how he had always liked me and then he leaned in rather slowly and I leaned in too. I don't think either of us where sure of where we were going with this. Before he even kissed me we just held each other and we just stared at each others lips and he had leaned in more and he kissed me. At first I was kind of resistant. I mean how are you supposed to react when the guy you've crushed on your whole life actually likes you?"

"That is cheesy, but it's romantic, I like it" Harry says

"Well at work everyday he took me behind a gate. Back there was a shed and it was usually empty except for some lifeguard equipment and once we actually did it there."

"In a shed?"

"well we wanted to do it so we did it. And that's when I lost my virginity, he took mine and I took his."

"Wow. How was it?"

"Im not going to hear this part" Liam says plugging in some earphones to his ears.

To bother him I show Harry with my hands.

"Well we did it up against the wall. He held me up against the wall as he ate me out, I grabbed his hair like this" I say grabbing Harry's hair and tugging it a little

"Oh god." he says putting his hands over his pants.

This was actually fun.

"And then he came back up and planted soft kisses on my neck and down to my chest. Up to about here" I say pointing to a spot a little bit above my right breast.

"And he continued to move into me, he'd thrust slowly at first but the closer he got to his climax the faster he went and it felt good."

"Is Zayn like that?" Harry asks, his hands still over his pants.

"I've only done it once with Zayn and it wasn't passionate at all it was rough. It was sexy"

"I bet it was."

I grab the earplugs from Liam's ear.

"I'm done"

"Well I didn't hear anything but I saw plenty."

"That was my plan."

"You evil little girl"

"MUAHAHAHA"

"Are you guys hungry?" I say pulling out the bag of snacks I grabbed.

"Uhm did you pack your whole fridge?" Liam says

"How do you do that?" Harry says

"Do what?"

"Eat so much and not gain an ounce?!"

"Well I like to workout. I always get up early and run about 2 or 3 miles in the morning. Sometimes I go to the gym but that's when I'm not at work."

"Dancing has done you wonders" Harry says.

"And puberty has done the same for you" I tell him as I hand him a granola bar

We continue to eat things I would take out of the bag.

"Hey you know what turns Zayn on?" Harry says

"uhmm what?"

"When you whisper in his ear, something naughty, especially in Spanish" He says

"Yeah, Niall does it all the time to bother him." Liam

"Ok."

"And when you kiss his neck, when you curse, which I don't approve but he finds it sexy, when you dance. Now that I think of it your like his dream girl." Harry's says

"How come?"

"Well you've got a big chest, a firm bum, flat stomach, and very nice legs, brown hair, nice eyes, and he doesn't usually tell people but he loves curly hair. I should know." Harry says

"Good to know."

"Oh and cause you have the same hobbies, same taste in music, and he's always liked a shy quiet girl. But your different when your with him."

"No I'm different when I'm with you guys. I feel like I can be myself when I'm with him."

"you can be yourself with us!" Liam says

"I am! I'm just shy with people I first meet or don't know."

"Ohh. That makes so much more sense."

"Well why do you like Zayn."

"Where do I start? He has sexy hair, beautiful eyes, and when he bites his lip. I can't even describe that feeling. His tattoos are hot. His heart, well with me, he's always so sweet and he's always so nice and he tries not to smoke around me. It's hard for him. I know it is but he manages not to do it. And I just honestly just love him because he's MY dream guy"