cut yourself in conversation | gerbert

chapter thirty

bert sighs as he enters his apartment after a long few days at work. there was a bombing out of town that they responded too. he called gerard any chance he got, but he was so busy and so tired it wasn't very often. upon entering his apartment, he drops his duffle bag on the ground. his eyes glance up from the floor and lets out a breath of relief when he sees gerard. gerard just hugs him tightly, knowing it was a really tough case. bert squeezes him closely, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. that's when he notices mikey.

"pete's on his way to pick me up, i just wanted to welcome you back." mikey smiles hugging an upset bert. gerard knows doing this job triggers him back to when he was wounded, he could hear how upset he was in his voice when they called. so gerard ordered in his favorite takeout and movie. pete arrives and mikey says his goodbyes before leaving. bert just hugs gerard again, rubbing his back. "i've missed you, i hate being gone for days at a time. how has everything been here?"

"everything's been fine. how are you though? are you okay baby? i know it's hard for you being out in the feild." gerard asks as they pull away, sitting on the couch. bert grabs his plate, taking a bite. hurry softly, frustrated.

"i'm okay, i don't wanna talk about it right now. what have you been doing while i've been gone? you said you had a job interview to work part time at the diner, how was it?" bert asks. wanting to take his mind off the past few days and hear about gerard's week. gerard sighs at bert's constant change of topic but goes with it. knowing he just doesn't want to seem vulnerable to gerard. gerard hates that bert feels the need to always be the man. never showing when he's upset or something's bothering him, always trying to be strong for gerard.

"it went well, i got the job. it's just to make a little extra to give to mikey. he's a teenager, he needs some money. plus it'll give me something to do in the mornings until my work at night." gerard says taking a bite of his food while he explains. "i started today, it went really well. one of the guys who works there has been teaching me, he's really sweet, he even likes billy joel too."

"that's great angel. better tell that guy not to be too sweet or i'll have to come into work with you one morning." bert playfully threatens, earning a heart warming laugh from gerard. bert doesn't handle jealousy well, that's one of his biggest flaws. gerard knows, he doesn't mind it. he finds it cute. "it's so nice hearing your laugh, i've missed you so much."

gerard leans over softly kissing him. bert pushes his plate aside and grabs gerard by the hips and pulling him onto his lap. straddling his waist, bert's hands grip his waist, rubbing gerard's body against himself, moving to his neck. gerard lets out an involuntary moan. rolling his head back, hands running through and gripping berts blonde hair. until he's taken by surprise when lifted up in the same postion, kissed as bert carries him back to the bedroom.

not wasting any time before their clothes are stripped off.

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gerard pants throwing his arm over his head, staring up at the ceiling. sweaty, sore and exhausted. bert tiredly lies his head on gerard's chest, pulling the covers over their naked bodies. "if i would have known you wanted to just fuck out your frustration we could have just skipped dinner. what's on your mind baby? something's still bothering you, we've never had angry sex like this before."

"i know, i'm sorry. it's the looks of the families of the victims faces gee, they were so broken. i couldn't stop thinking about you and mikey. things like this shouldn't be happening here, not when we're fighting overseas. i don't know what i'd do if i ever lost you, especially to something like that. the families were devastated and there was nothing i could do to help them. nothing that could be said that could fix the pain they're in." bert sighs in frustration. gerard's heart sinks hearing the pain in bert's voice from the thought of loosing him.

"don't worry about mikey and i. we're safe here. you're the one in danger when you're called out. you're so sweet, that's what makes you who you are and that's what i love so much about you. but it's also what hurts you so much. i can't imgaine how hard it is seeing all that death and destruction, the families destroyed. but all you can do is your job, okay?" gerard says playing with bert's sweaty wet hair. wishing he could help bert through all this better.

"thank you for listening, for dinner and even bothering to come over tonight. and obviously for the angry sex, i really needed that. i didn't hurt you too bad, did i?" bert says hugging him closer. resting into his embrace which is new. gerard places a kiss on the top of his head. giving up and letting his heavy eyelids close.

"don't thank me sugar, it's what's boyfriends are for. and for the record, i'm used to angry sex, remember?" gerard chuckles softly, fighting himself not to fall asleep. gerard often makes light jokes of his bad situation, to make himself feel better. bert doesn't mind, he just feels really bad for him. though no response is given from bert. opening his eyes, gerard smiles sweetly seeing bert's fallen asleep peacefully in his arms.

[this chapter is short and boring im sorry, i just needed to add bert's job. also i don't write smut so]