I just don't know what to do right now. so much feels wrong. I'm not sad but I'm not exactly happy or content either. I have this horrible feeling of unrest. My boyfriend is depressed and shutting me out. He's anxious about this six month mark that's still two months away. and now he's pushing me away so what do I do? should i be worried about 6 months too? I want to marry him. I'm bringing a third person into our relationship because I know it would make him happier. I think it would help me too but I'm not sure about in the long run but he's only excited about that it seems. I'm just so lost. I'm so in love with this man who very clearly doesn't know if he feels the same or will feel the same in a few months. I hope this passes. I'll probably write about the third person later but I just cant right now. I guess I should go to walmart cause I need to. ill just keep going on as if I'm not terrified he's going to leave me in two months. I don't know what to do anymore. ill be fine I guess.
this would have been feb 10 2020
sometimes still feel a little lost but weve been working on not pushing me away. March 29th 2020
We're still working on it but relationships are work. Today is a hard day...
Also we decided against a 3rd person and we made it past 6 months
4/23/2020
Some of these feel too personal to share... These were a hard few months for us but we made it through them and I'm glad we had that chance to grow together. 8/28/23
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Stone Fox Diary
Non-FictionPoetry thoughts and ramblings dating back to at least 2019. This is a journal that builds on itself as time goes by. Every now and then I come back, read what I've written before and make comments about it. Sometimes I just comment on what's written...
