👉RAY👈
I stood on the side of the street as i watched the police cover my little sister's lifeless body with a white sheet.
The whole street was blocked due to the tragic scence...
I just couldnt believe this shit! She's gone!
People stood around behind the yellow tape that said "do not cross", that the police had placed around the street and sidewalk.
I put my head down in a fatal way shaking my head.
"god why not me?" I said to myself, feeling tears drop down my face.
I was angry and sad at the same damn time! I just wanted to find biggie and torture his heartless bitch ass! He took the only thing that I had left! He took my blood, my soul, my other half that I was supposed to protect no matter what and I failed... she looked up to me for protection and I couldn't save her... I just couldn't .. it happened before I knew it. I mean if she would have just ran off like I told her to, maybe it wouldn't have ended up like this... I just ... god I just cant live without her 😩😩😩
I placed my hands on my head and took a step off the curb but then the pain hit me and I stumbled to the ground. "ah shit!" I groaned in pain remembering I had got shot in the leg.
I held my leg seeing my orange jumper covered in dark blood.
One of the paramedics ran over to me,kneeling beside me. "sir are you ok?" She asked.
I looked up at her and paused for a second. "DOES IT FUCKING LOOK LIKE IM OK?! I JUST GOT OUT OF JAIL,MY SISTER IS DEAD,I HAVE A DAMN BULLET IN MY LEG AND I JUST WANT TO KILL A FAT BITCH TO A SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH!"
The paramedic looked at me. "sir I'm so sorry..." she said in a soft caring tone.
"Fuck you, you dumb bald headed ass bitch, your not fucking sorry! You don't know how I feel right now... My sister is GONE and never coming back ok? What am I supposed to do now huh? She was all I had left and I couldn't save her and its all my fault. i-I just want my little sister back." my voice started to crack and I felt tears begin to fill my eyes back up. "I just want her back. I can't live without her. it should have been me!"
I buried my face into my hands and cried hysterically.
I felt the lady wrap her arms around me gently. "I might not know how you feel honey, but I sure as hell know your hurting. Don't put this on yourself because it's in god's hands and today was her day to go home to him where things are much better. if it was your time God would have taken you, but he brought her home where she needs to be,but you have to stay strong for your sister. just think, would she want to see you broken down? Live for her. stay strong for her."
I continued to cry in grief but she grabbed my face. "look at me."
I sniffed and looked up at her.
She looked me in the eyes. "you have to stay strong ok? I know it hurts now, but you have to keep yourself lifted up for yours sister's sake."
I nodded and whipped my face.
"She's always in here..." she then placed her hand on my heart and smiled.
I smiled back and put my hand on top of hers.
"Now give me a hug" she said wrapping her arms around my neck. I placed my hands on her back and hugged her back and pulled away a couple seconds later.
"What's your name?"
"Ray"
"Well Ray I'm Dana. your a nice young man, I know you are. just remember my words ok? Stay strong for her no matter what. also don't do anything you'll regret doing because God will handle everything in this situation. all YOU have to do is trust in God and pray and the every thing will be alright."
I nodded. "your right mrs. Dana I need to just stay strong for her. it won't be the same without her around but she's always with me in my heart like you said. no need for me to go and try to hurt the guy that hurt her because all it will do is mess my life up even more. just let God handle it and I'll be just fine."
Dana smiled real big. "that's what I wanna hear ray!"
I laughed. "yeah.."
She laughed.
"But I'm can I ask you something?"
She nodded.
"Can we go to the hospital now because my leg is killing me." I groaned, shifting my leg.
"OH OH YEA YEA DEFINITELY!" She said hoping up from the ground and helping me up.
"Ssss ahh!" I groaned.
"Careful honey.." she said..
I put my arm around her neck and she helped me to the ambulance.
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Even though things will be hard and different for a while I'll be ok because I know she's with the lord up above. and I know that's wayyyyyy better than being down here. she's been through a lot these past years and I know she's going to be much better now😊 I just have to stay strong like Dana said and keep my head up because I know ramya is smiling down on me right now.
R.i.p lil sis I love you and see you soon 😊🙌🙌🙏🙏
