Shadow (sequel to Will You Be My Superman)

Say you'll be my nightingale chapter 39.

EDITED
Demi's pov-

I watch Paige's eyes fill with saddness, the anger. I look over to Nick scared on how Paige is going to react. "She died?" Paige sobs into my shoulders. I let out a quiet sigh, thankful she isn't freaking out. Then what I was expecting happens. She starts to kick, and scream like a five year old. This is probably the worst thing to happen to her. "She isn't fucking dead you bitch ass liar!" She shouts tears running down her face. I sit on my luggage letting the tears roll down my own face. I have no idea how to handle this, she's never freaked out this much. 'I'm going to miss Maddie too." I sob out finally realizing my babygirl is gone. I look around, and see Nick hugging Paige trying to calm her down. Bea is sitting in fear on one of the chairs, her knees up to her chest as she allows herself to cry harder than she has ever before. Mom is watching Paige carefully, I can tell she isn't allowing herself to cry. Dad is holding onto mom tightly. And here I am sitting on my luggage watching my whole world collapse around me. Maddie's gone for good, and I can't change a thing about it.

I allow myself to burst into a fresh round of sobs, and I bring my knees up to my chest. I cry louder, and louder not caring that people will stare. I close my eyes tightly wanting to open them, and not be here. In this graveyard. In the death place of my sister. My sister, the one I stayed strong for. The one that told me to get help by just being her self. Yet here I am slowly breaking down. Slowly not caring if I become the mess I was again. I don't have my sanity any more. She's gone, and I don't know what to do. She's actually gone.

When I look up I notice I'm not in the hospital anymore, but in a car. I tense up right away knowing that a car was the reason my sister died. "Dad she's awake." I hear a small raspy voice mumble. I look down to see a blonde young girl laying on my lap softly crying. Paige. Why is she crying? When did we get in a car?

"Demi you spent the last four hours crying, or not responding to us." Nick explains from the front seat. What four hours?

"Was I mean?" I mutter wiping Paige's tears away. She looks up at me and her blue eyes tell me I said something to her.

"You uh.. said that um.. your only reason to live was Maddie.. and you forgot who Paige was for thirty minutes." Nick stutters. I look back down at Paige who doesn't seem mad at all, just sad.

"Did she relapse?" I ask.

"No."

"Mom I don't know why you were so hard on your self I know you didn't mean it." Paige says as if reminding me that I must of felt bad afterwards.

"I don't even remember being a mess sweetie." I reply causing Paige to sit up immediately, and look at Nick. I see Nick is looking through the mirror at Paige.

"Am I missing something.." I trail off as I see that Paige look at my wrists. I too now look at my wrists feeling my heart beat faster. I swear if I relapsed. When I get a good glance at my tattooed wrists I see old scars from the hard times, and that's it. I sigh a heavy breath, and notice Paige is still tensed up.

"Just because you didn't relapse doesn't mean you didn't try." Paige whispers looking me deep in the eyes. I can tell she's about to cry, and I know I will end up sobbing my eyes out again if I see a single tear drip down her face.

"Please tell me what happened." I plead her. Paige nods her head, and begins to tell me the story.

"So we were at the airport, and I walked off to go buy a candy bar. Dad ended up asking you where I was, and you replied to him, " I don't know a Paige." Well I was right behind you when you said that, and I started crying. You freaked out cause you thought I was a fan, which ended up causing me to cry even more. Finally thirty minutres later you realized who I was as we were sitting down waiting for the plane. You spent those thirty minutes staring at the ground by the way. Anyways, you became a big crying mess again, and excused yourself to that bathroom. You were in the bathroom for ten minutes, and I was worried, so I went to go check up on you. When I walked in you were in a stall crying your eyes out, and repeating. "One won't hurt." I had to crawl on the floor, and under the stall to stop you. I don't know how, but you somehow found something similar to a blade, but I stopped you before you did any damage. You and I ended up spending the last twenty minutes before we had to board our flight to L.A. crying. I was the one who had to stop you this time? Funny how it was the other way around." Paige dryly chuckles but continues, "You didn't speak once the whole flight here, and half the car ride home. Now here we are, you're finally out of it, and we're pulling into the driveway." Paige stops, and looks at me, "Don't overthink it, talk to Nick and I if you need to. Alright? I'm going straight to bed. Night mom I love you SO much." Paige emphasizes the 'so'. I nod my head and watch Paige go inside leaving Nick and I outside.

Nick and I are now both laying in bed together about to go to sleep. "Want to talk about it?" Nick asks grabbing my hand.

"Talk about what? That my baby sister is dead?" My voice cracks.

"Demi.. I" Nick starts, but I interrupt him by letting out loud sobs. He immediately pulls me into a warm hug attempting to comfort me.

"I miss her so much." I sob out secretly praying that I won't wake up Paige. I know she had a long rough day, and I know she was triggered over something I did, I just want her to get rest. I just can't help it though. It hurts so bad. I miss Maddie so much, and I don't know why she had to go. She was my little Skyscraper, she isn't my little warrior because Paige is my little warrior.

"Demi." Nick snaps in front of my crying face.

"I'm.. I'm sorry for the way I acted." I sniffle rubbing my eyes.

"It's okay, Demi you were in shock. I understand it's really hard. I would feel the same if I lost one of my brothers. Heck I would probably be worst." Nick laughs, but covers it with a cough. I giggle at him probably thinking this isn't the right timing to be laughing. "But anyways, Demi she's your nightingale now, and she's happy, and pain free in heaven. Trenton is probably watching over her, and will make sure she's okay. She's alright now, trust me." Nick consoles me adding a kiss to his little speech.

"Thank you baby, it really means a lot." I whisper snuggiling into his chest. I feel him ever so lightly kiss my forehead and he whispers back, "I love you so much Lovato," and he then drifts off to sleep.

"I love you way more Jonas." I reply feeling my own eyes droop, and soon I am asleep after an emotionally exhausting day.

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