I'm a Winston?

Part four

I wake up in the same state of mind I have since, I've left Tulsa three months ago, fuck my life, I live in hell. I broke up Andrew, the other day but, whatever, I'm in love with Sodapop not, Andrew. I walk down stairs, "bye mom."

"Where the hell do you think you're going?" She immediately snaps.

"Why do you care, you never care where Rose goes?" I fire back not hesitating for a millisecond.

"Don't you dare sass me," my mom yells.

"I'll do whatever I want, you're not even my real mom," I flip.

"To think I took you in from the streets, you ungrateful bitch!" My mom yells.

"How about I just leave again, you don't love me and I don't love you nor does anybody else in this fucking world loves me, not even my own brother!" I yell holding back tears through that last part.

"Get out of my house," she commands.

"Fine, I'll just go back to Tulsa, oh wait I have nobody fucking there!" I scream.

"You don't have anybody because your an ungrateful little bitch, who only looks on the negative. Nobody will ever love you!" She yells and god as she says that, it felt like somebody was taking my heart and ripping it in half.

"I hate you!" I sob running upstairs. I grab as much clothing as I can grab and spread it through, five book bags and a purse.

I run down stairs and as I dash out the door I hear my mom yell, "good run you little bitch, run! You'll never find another home, nobody likes an ungrateful bitch!"

I run out and run onto the train, it'll be a long ride to Tulsa but, I can't miss my stop.

***HOURS LATER***

It's time to jump, I first throw my bags one by one into the cold snow of Tulsa, next it's me, and trust me jumping out of a moving train is not as fun as it sounds, it's fucking scary but, I have to do it. "AH!" I scream as I plummet to the ground. I hit the ground and of fucking course twist my ankle. I walk in the town of Tulsa aimlessly until I see Johnnycakes sleeping in the vacant lot we met in, a smile grows across my face, I lay down on the cold snowy ground next to him and let myself drift asleep, I can't wait to see him tomorrow, I've missed him so much.

***TOMORROW MORNING***

I wake up to the sun shining bright in the sky but, a sound asleep Johnnycakes. "Hey Johnnycakes, wake up," I whisper into his ear as I shake him a little bit.

"Sarah," he mumbles sleepily.

"Yup, it's me," I smile.

"Oh my god, Sodapop!" He yells out randomly.

"What?" I ask him.

"You need to see Sodapop," he says happily.

"No!" I yell not ready to see him yet.

"Why not? He misses you," he says all confused like.

"Because, I'm not ready to see him yet," I say angrily.

"I don't get it you've been gone for three months, he's missed you just like I've missed you and it's ashamed the gang hasn't seen your inner beauty," he whines.

"I don't really care, when I need food, I'll see him and I'll probably need food soon, I just got here," I explain.

"Ok, I'll see ya 'round," he says sadly.

"Johnnycakes, don't be sad I saw you yesterday and I've immediately felt happier than I've been in forever," I reply trying to cheer him up. He gives me a weak smile and runs off.