Losing you

Nash

Nash's P.O.V

Nash:"Kay hurry tho,I'll see you there"

Matt:"Okay see you there"

Nash:"Bye"

Matt:"Bye"

I just got off the phone with Matthew and he didn't sound so good. He almost sounded like he was....crying.Well I'll ask him when he gets down here.

So now I'm in this small room all alone and the guys are getting ready for the meet and greet out in the main room. They think I'm still talking to Matt on the phone.

I know we are suppose to focus on positive vibes since we're about to go see al out fans but since me and Carter posted up a new video with me, Hayes, and him doing the cotton ball challenge I wanted to check all the likes and views we got.

When I went there I saw that a lot of people disliked the video...more people then I'm used to. Is it me??? Is that why they didn't like the video or is it because Hayes or that we were messing with Carter?¿?¿

I was confused I didn't do anything wrong then be me I I decided to check the comments.

"EWWWW that Nash kid kissed Carter"

"Blah why would Nash kiss a boy?!?!??!"

"I think Nash is gay"

"Gay"

"It's okay Nash I don't judge for all you can be gay and I will still support you"

"Nash isn't gay!!!He's bisexual total difference"

"Gay homo kid is famous?thats not right"

"Nash is going to hell for kissing a boy he better bathe in holy water"

Wow. I'm the reason why people hate the video and Carter. Because I kissed him at the end. I thought he cut that out. Now people are saying that I'm gay but I'm not. I don't know why I kissed him I just had hormones you know? I don't like him that way it's just that I haven't kissed anyone in a while so the urge just came. I'm not a homo or bisexual or gay I'm straight. I don't judge but I like girls not guys.

I felt like I was going to cry. No I can't not here not now.

I needed some positivity so I went to twitter to see what my fans are up to

@NashGrier: WUTTUP people!!! I'm so excited to see all of you guys today!!!

I tweeted out and got instant replies but most were negative. All of them are saying like "Your also excited to see Carter's cheek huh??" And stuff like that.

They were shipping us and editing photos of me and Carter kissing.

"No"I said
"No no no"
"This isn't true"
"No"
"Stop"
"No!!!" I shouted throwing my phone at the wall. How can I be so stupid and kiss Carter ???

I felt locked inside a really tight closet and the room started getting smaller it's like I couldn't control my self.

"W-what's happening??? W-why is the room getting small?!?!!" I yelled panicking

"HELP!!!!!SOMEONE HELP ME !!!!" I yelled

"What happened!!!??" yelled Aaron bursting thru the door with the guys following him

I was in the corner of the room sitting down crying I didn't know what got into me I'm mad and sad and.....lonley

"Hey man you okay???"said Aaron jogging over to me with the guys behind him

"Y-yeah I'm okay" I said getting up

"Then why were you yelling for help??" Said Aaron with a confused look

"I-I-I don't know what got into me but I'm good now" I said unsure of what just happened

"Okay then let's go there are dozens of girls waiting for you man" said Taylor fixing his turquoise bandana as we were walking out of the room

"Oh and here's your phone" said Aaron handing me my phone

We were walking down the hall and ran into Matt. He looked....like if he was crying and he was wearing a sweater with the sleeves down when he normally has them up...weird. While all of us were walking down the hall towards the door that led to our fans I was in deep thought.

What happened back there?? Was I having some type of attack??? Why do I feel so detached from everyone? Oh and btw I'm Nash. Nash Grier.