Losing you

Chapter 3

Shawns P.O.V

"APRILLL!!!" I shouted

She cant leave she needs help. Both her arms are filled with scars and new ones too. How can I not notice that before??? I'm stupid I should of seen it and stopped her

"Leave me alone Shawn!!" She yelled back walking towards the elevator

She got in the elevator and pressed a button. Shit she's gonna get away so I ran to the elevator and put my hand on the door to stop it from closing and got in the elevator with her

"Can you leave me alone??? Please." she said in a desperate tone

"Not until you tell me why you did that" I said. And hell no I'm not leaving her alone she might do "that" again

There was a long pause. I knew she was thinking of an excuse to not tell me why she does that.

I was looking at her the whole entire time all she did was look at the elavator numbers go down to the main lobby but then she just looked at me and smirked.

"Okay I'll tell you" she said before the elevator door opened

She stepped closer to me

"sorry I can't" she whispered as she looked at me with apologetic eyes and turned to the open elevator and gulped

"OH MY GOD ITS SHAWN MENDES" she screamed and she gave me one last look as she ran out the door, I tried to grab her but I end up taking her jacket and just then I turned to look and a swarm of girls were coming my way screaming

Wow. She knew what she was doing, hmph smart girl

Well now I have to sign things for my fans and take pictures, dont get me wrong I love my fans but I just wanted to help April. I want her to get better, I need her to get better

Aprils P.O.V

I feel so bad. I shouldn't of dissed him the way I did but whatever it's not like if I'm ever going to see him again. I just need to clear my head.

I looked back like the dumbass I was and saw him smiling for a picture with a fan and oh can I tell you it killed me a lot but oh well at least he's happy

I needed to clear my head and I'm hungry like no lie I'm super hungry and my stomach is growling so I saw a Starbucks and decided to go in. I got a mocha frappe-chino and since it was sprinkling rain outside I just went out side and sat on the edge of the side walk in front of a empty parking lot and just drank my cold drink and just thought.

I thought of all the things that happened to me. Why don't I end this already and just do it ?? I'm tired of everything and I'm cold like really cold. Freakin SHAWN got my jacket. But I dont wanna go inside I love the rain so Id rather just sit and think.

Wow I'm such a loner, I mean I wasn't always alone I used to have friends. One named Sam another called Josh and Ashley, Emily and Alex. We were a pretty solid group of friends and all met in 4th grade.

But when 8th grade came everything happened. Sam was diagnosed with stomach cancer. Ashley committed suicide and Emily and Josh became really popular and forgot about us before sam was diagnosed. Then I spend my time with Sam in the hospital with Alex and then I came in one day and the doctor told me he passed away and then I couldn't contain myself. All I had was Alex but he started hanging out with different people and left me just like Josh and Emily. I thought it was my fault I drove all three of them away and wasn't there for Ash when she needed me. I wasn't there and Sam was there to comfort me. To make me happy and losing him killed me and I tried to commit suicide but I just wake up the next day after next. As much as I tried I couldnt do it Sam wouldn't want me too I promised him I wouldn't.

Then I got snapped out of my thoughts

"Hey are you okay?" Said a voice walking towards me

No. No I'm not

"Yea I'm fine" I said

"Well you don't look fine" said a male voice as it sat next to me

I didn't even bother looking at him it wouldnt even make a difference if I do

"What makes you say that??" I said still staring into the dull empty parking lot

"Well your alone and your crying" he said

Shit I didn't even know I was crying. I just wiped my tear and turned to look at him who was already looking at me.

His eyes were puffy and he had bags under his eyes but as I was looking at him he gave me a small smile. A forced one.

He had dull brown hazel eyes and brown golden hair that was messy and looked like he wasn't really himself by the looks of it. Something's wrong with him and he's trying to hide it. I know it I've worn that look and I know how to spot it.

I turned to look back at the empty lot

"But I'm fine" I said responding back to him

We just sat there in silence for a while until he spoke up

"I'm Matthew" he said with a small smile