friends | blake richardson

~chapter 20~

uGH I LOVE THIS SONG SM! it's so chill and ig the beginning can match up to the story line but not that well but i just wanted to share the song bc it's beautiful and now i'm rambling enjoy the story

(blakes POV)

I was lying down on my bed in my hotel room, looking through leilani's instagram, and noticed she posted something new. I clicked on it and saw she was smiling in front of the Notre Dame. She looked so beautiful, it made me smile. I don't care a lot but today was an exception. I had hurt her. Unintentionally, but still. I wish she would just let me explain to her that it's different from what the picture says. I cover my face with my hands, still crying. I can't lose her. She's the love of my life and i'm still planning on making her my wife. I have to talk to her tonight but in the meantime i'll take a shower, hoping it'll make me feel slightly better even though i already know it won't.

On the way to our little arena, i put both earbuds in and stare out the window, trying to ignore my best mates talking about their fun day with leilani. I was trying to think of ways to talk to leilani and i didn't need them to interrupt. 

The entire soundcheck, i kept to myself. Barely said a word while we were getting ready for the performance. That is, until Reece confronted me about it.

"I'm still angry at you but i'm doing this for my two best friends sake. I think you should try to talk to leilani. She's crazy about you and she's been an emotional mess ever since last night. Whatever happened....please explain because i know you wouldn't purposely hurt her."

"Yeah i would never. The situation was way different than what the picture shows."

"Find time to tell her tonight and you can explain it to me later." Reece says and i nod my head.

There she was, in the middle front row like every show. I didn't think she'd come tonight but i'm glad she did. I tried to catch her gaze many times during the concert but she wouldn't meet it. To try to take my mind off things, I focused on my singing and let myself dance.

Then, we started singing Love Again. If it hurt me, i knew it hurt her even more. Right when she heard the first few notes, i saw her quietly walk out. Reece and George both noticed too.

'What should i do?' I ask with a facial expression. They give me a look that says, 'go get her!'. I say sorry to the crowd and run offstage. I burst through the doors, searching frantically for leilani. It was hard to see in the dark but a minute or two later, i found her. She was outside walking alone towards the garden surrounding the building. Eventually i catch up to her.

"If it's Reece or George, please go back to the concert. I appreciate the thought but i need to be alone for a second." She says, her back turned towards me.

"Leilei, it's me." I say quietly. She doesn't even respond, she just walks faster towards the exit. Each time she gets ahead of me, i catch up. "Leilei, please just listen to me."

"Why should i? You said it yourself, i don't deserve this. I'm done being abused, i'm done being cheated on, i'm done with it all. I hope you and your slutty new girlfriend have a good life. I'm going back home right now, i don't ever want to see your face again."

"She's not my girlfriend, leilani!" I say a little too urgently, not wanting her to leave and go back home.

"Oh, so one night stand?"

"No! Leilani just- listen to me...please." My tone gets gentler with every word. "You don't even have to talk or even stop walking, just...let me explain." She didn't talk or stop so i took my chance. "I know the picture looks bad, really bad and you don't know how sorry i am for that. I just want to let you know, i did not kiss her. She's my ex and she appeared out of nowhere but next thing i knew, she was kissing me."