Help Calm My Mind

Embrace

Chat Noir's POV
    "Shit." I whispered under my breath. I was on top of a roof with Ladybug's head on my lap. As soon as she passed out I caught her before she hit the ground and started running toward somewhere more private. If people saw that Ladybug passed out... well that wouldn't be good. I was so worried about her. When I was carrying her I noticed how light she was. Is this why she passed out? Was she not eating enough?
     Beep, Beep. I snapped my head down to see that she only had a few seconds before she detransformed. My hands were so shaky as anxiety and worry coursed through my veins. I couldn't leave her here. She's in no condition to walk back to wherever she lives, and even if she was, I would still be worried sick. My mind was made up. I promised I'd help her and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I love her, so, so much. It suffocates me sometimes. Whenever I see here smile I forget how to breathe and I'm basked in this warmth and I always feel like a swarm of butterflies are in my stomach. And her laugh, oh my god. Her laugh is the greatest sound I've ever heard and whenever I hear it, I can't help but laugh, too. I love her, and I need to make sure she's okay. Even if she doesn't tell me, I'll always be here for her because even if she doesn't love me, I love her with every breath of my body.
     Beep, beep. I then get blinded by a bright pink light and I only have mere seconds to prepare myself for I'm finally going to see who's under the mask. I just wish it was under better circumstances. I slowly open my eyes to see someone so familiar, so serene, that I could've sworn my heart skipped at least three beats.
    "Marinette?" All this time and it was her. I'm so glad she's the one, I couldn't imagine anyone else to be Ladybug. She's so talented, kind, selfless, beautiful, but she's gone through so much and I feel so guilty. I should've known, and in a way, I did know. That night on the Eiffel Tower was when I started to suspect that my princess was Ladybug. The look in her eyes, dull and emotionless, was the same look Marinette had in her beautiful bluebell eyes.
    "Please help Chat Noir! She hasn't eaten in days!" In less than a second, I'm blasted back to reality and see a kwami that resembled a Ladybug. The small god looked so scared and worried that her whole body was trembling.
    "She... She hasn't?" I whispered, needing another confirmation, but I already knew the answer. I've lost count on how many times Marinette has skipped lunch claiming she had a 'big breakfast' or that she just simply wasn't 'hungry'. I've also noticed how skinny she's gotten and now when I really look at her, she reminds me of a skeleton. She is no longer a healthy skin color, but now looks deathly pale and the adorable blush that once adorned her face is no longer there. How could this have ever happened? How could I have not notice?
    "Yes! Now please, help her!" Tikki cries once again. I drag myself out of my self loathing and I tell Tikki to hide in my hair and I'll bring us somewhere safe. Tikki flies into my hair while I pick Mari up and hold her tightly against my chest.
    Then I take off.
Marinette's POV
    I wake up in a big comfy bed feeling like my body was drained of all my energy. Without even realizing it, I slowly close my eyes hoping I can get a few more hours. But of course, that didn't happen. I snap my eyes back open as all my memories from awhile ago flashed in my mind. I remember hearing someone calling out my name before everything went black. I remember feeling so weak that it was hard to even walk. I quickly sit up taking in my surroundings. I was in a huge room with a rock climbing wall and shelves full of games. I was confused at first, but then I realized I was in Adrien's room. How did I even get here? I'm not supposed to be here, I'm not supposed to be anywhere, I guess.
    "I'm glad you're finally awake. I was worried." I quickly snapped my head towards the voice and see Adrien holding a bowl of soup. I could see worry and his eyes, and I feel guilty that I caused him to worry.
    "How did I get here?" The words come out harsher then I attend and I instantly feel bad for it. But when I look at him, he just smiles.
    "I'll tell you that later, but now, you have to eat something." My thumbs now seem really interesting and I start to twiddle with them. The way they move is so interesting, it actually calms me. Not a lot though.
    "I'm not really hungry. Thank you though." I then look up to see the smile he once had get wiped off his face and now a more serious expression comes onto his face. I can't help but think that no matter how hard I try, I always make people sad, I always make them worry, I always burden them. Just another reason why I should just die.
    "Cut the crap Marinette." I can't help but flinch at that. I've never seen him like this before. Adrien notices and takes a deep breath, "Sorry Mari, but you have to stop lying to us, to me. I know you're hungry, I know you haven't eaten in days, I know you can't last any longer without passing out again. And I can't help but worry that the longer you don't eat the chances of you dying go up higher. So please, Mari, eat. I'm begging you." I could see the tears form in his eyes and I get so confused that someone could actually care for me.
    "Why?" He looked at me with a confused expression. "Why? Why do you care, why do you worry about me when there are a lot more important things to worry about? I'd be better off dead, at least I wouldn't burden people anymore." He seems shocked about what I said and I see a flash of anger pass through his eyes.
"How could you say that about yourself?! If you died, things would never be the same again. You're parents, Alya, Nino, me, wouldn't know how to move on. You are the light that always shines in our lives, and if that wasn't there, who knows what we would become. We all care about you so much, so please, stop saying you'd be better off dead, because without you, the world would be so much worse." Now it was time for me to be shocked, it never came across to me that people would be sad that I died. I realized that I didn't want to die because I didn't want to burden people anymore or that I'd make it easier for people without me in their lives, but because I was selfish. I just wanted to end the pain, the misery, I never thought about how it would affect others.
I felt a tear slip down my face and the another, soon I was sobbing. I jumped out of bed and into Adrien's arms. I buried my face into his chest while his arms wrapped around me in a secure embrace. "I'm so sorry! I was being so selfish, I didn't want to hurt anyone, I'm so, so sorry." I felt his arms tighten around me.
"You weren't being selfish, and you don't have to be sorry. It's okay to worry about yourself sometimes, but all you do is worry about others. It's okay to take care of yourself, because if you don't, how are you going to help the people you love? It's okay to be selfish. You deserve everything in the world, you deserve happiness." I kept on crying until I had no more tears left. How did I get so lucky to have someone like him in my life, how did I get so lucky to have the honor to call him my best friend?
As I was wrapped around his arms something seemed so familiar about his embrace, the way he comforted me. I remembered the night I was at the Eiffel Tower and how Chat hugged me and told me everything was going to be okay. I smiled at that memory.
I finally found my kitty.