Hiding Myself From Loving You (A Before You Exit-KPOP Fan Fiction)

Chapter 11

Hiding Myself From Loving You
Chapter 11:

[Riley's POV]

Since Gem rejected me last graduation day, I couldnt help but ask myself if I'm not good for her, or if there were other factors. Seriously, this was killing me right now, and I was still not okay at all. Since then, I cried all day and all night here in my room, causing myself to deep depression. I just only want our friendship to take into the next level, but guess she really didnt have any single feelings for me, which I made myself helpless. What could I do to win her heart? T.T

As I was writing a song for her and tuning it with my guitar here in bed, a triple knock from the door suddenly awakened me from what I was doing, and went there to open.

"Hey Ri~~"

"Con! What brings you here?"

"Here's your porridge, silly."

"Aye, sir! Just place it on the table."

"Good thing youre awake now."

"W-why Con?"

"Uhmmm..nothing. Just wanna check on your condition right now." He sound a bit playful, but seems that he's really serious.

"I'm still fine, bro."

"I know...b-b-but I know you still couldnt get over of the fact that Gem rejected you. It's already a week since the--"

"But I still love her despite that fact. I dont know...b-but my feelings for her still didnt change, and it grew more stron--"

"But the question...does she loves you back?"

"I-I dont care if she doesnt love me."

As I was saying those lines, I dont know...but I just felt that Im more hoping that she would realize the fact that there's someone who could give her everything, and I dont care about her being Korean/Chinese, tomboyish, and lastly, being older than me. I still love her anyways; in other words, I lied to myself. But on the other hand, I still tried my best just to save our friendship by a promise that we wont fall for each other, but I suddenly broke this, and its because I couldnt hide this anymore. I'm also guilty for this, but what would I do? This feeling's really stronger.

"Chillax, bro. I'm just only concerned cos I know you're not really fine." Con really

"Okay okay. I'm still not fine cos I know she wouldnt love me back."

"It's not like that...we're concerned bout your health. I just noticed you even locked yourself here since then, and even Mom and Dad are really worried bout you." He calmly reminded me.

"I know bro... T____T and I'm soooo sorry for that, bu--"

"It's alright, Ri. I know how it feels..." he gave me his warmest brotherly hug.

"Thanks bro. Youre really the best at comforting me."

"My pleasure, lil Ri," he keeps on patting my head like a child, "just finish eating your porridge, and we'd be going to the recording stud--."

"Oka--WHAAAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN RECORDING STUDIO? DID WE MADE OURSELVES ON THE AUDITIONS?"

"Exactly. Thats why you should be ready cos record label signing later."

When I suddenly heard the word 'recording studio', I was almost being choked cos this really awaken me from this very bad condition to good, and while hearing him telling me that we made it to the auditions, but it's just a label audition (p.s.: that audition happened a week before our graduation), but still it's important to me cos we would finally have a record label, and we could finally have a debut ep...album, or whatever. The important is we want to promote our music to everyone.