The Three Soulmates: Datalie

18.

PURE SHOCK.

I don't think I've ever felt so shocked about something, my body felt numb. almost like my soul left my body and all was left of me was a messy conscious and a white face. this feeling is worse then when me and David split a couple months back it almost felt like my life was ripped apart on and shit on multiple times. I cried for weeks on end when he left so why does he have any right to come back into my life and meet the baby he wanted nothing to do with. David ran to Liza when he left me but me? I can't move on, how could a sane person let all those memories go? all the possibilities that were left behind. I loved David and he was always there for me but maybe I should just move on and let go.

I looked down at my phone.

6:52am

have I really been sitting here in shock for that long? I'm a mother now and I deserve better than this.

RING RING RING RING

My phone was yelling at me, it was David. I picked up.

"Hey! Nat?" he says "That's my name" I say as I try my best to calm myself down "I could come around in the next two hours or so" he sounds nervous "Apartment 4 657 Jensen road" I say "The doors open. Me and Finn will probably nap for awhile he's been keeping me up all night" I rant "Hey I don't have to come around today if you need to rest" David has gotten more polite "He usually keeps me up every night dave don't stress it being a new mother is stressful but I think I can handle you coming around" I need to stop ranting to him but I can't whenever I talk to David I feel like I can tell him everything "I can come right now if you need some extra help" he suggests "Really? that'd be amazing" I say "Yeah, I'll drop by soon" he says happily "Okay, see you soon Davey" I reply "See you soon Nat" he says.

I hung up and sighed I needed to cry, scream maybe both?

I ran over to the washroom, Finn just went back to sleep and I needed to clean myself but why? It's not like he's going to come here with a bundle of roses asking for my hand in marriage or anything crazy like that.

I took a shower anyways.

As I hopped out, changed into grey sweats and a Metallica tee, brushed my teeth and dried my hair I heard a knock at the door.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

My heart was going to explode I stood there in pure shock wondering if I was dreaming or not until I heard Finn crying from the noise. I ran over to him and picked him up.

"let's go see daddy" I whisper into his small ear. I open the door and see him standing there he was wearing a black Brockhampton hoodie and black pants.

he still smelled the same, just standing in front of him made my heart feel like it was climbing up the biggest roller coaster into a ocean of butterflies.

"Hey" he said softly, my heart dropped into the ocean of butterflies hearing him talk.

"Hi" I replied even more softly.

We were both in pure shock looking at each other.

"Come in" I say looking into his soft brown eyes, his eyes made me feel like all my problems were fading into a million pieces.

"Gladly" He says with a soft smiles "The living room is on your right you could sit on the couch if you'd like" I say softly smiling at him "Would you like some coffee?" I paused "Oh wait, you don't even like coffee" He laughs "I've actually learned to love coffee, it's hard to manage my vlogs all by myself" He explains "Getting stressful?" I ask "Yeah, I had this amazing assistant who helped me keep my shit together but I let her go. Realized how stupid it was to let someone go who was amazing at what they do" He says as he sits on the couch "She sounds amazing, what was her name?" I ask he smirks.

"I'm going to feed Finn and make you some coffee" I say smiling at him "Could I hold him?" he asks "Of course" I say walking toward him passing him our son "He's beautiful" he says as he holds him "Must have gotten that from his father" I say smirking at him, he smiles at me"Could you feed him for me? I need some Redbull and a snack" I ask "Of course! I'd love to help lil man fall asleep" he says smiling.

I walked into the kitchen and started up the coffee then finding a Redbull and a half eaten burrito in the fridge.

I downed the Redbull in what seemed like seconds and made David's coffee.

"I don't know how you like your coffee so I just made it how I liked it" I explain as I walk into the living room.

they both looked so peaceful Finn was fast asleep and David was looking at him with the biggest smile I've ever seen.

I walked over to them and put down David's coffee "Cute isn't he?" I say softly "Very, he must've gotten that from me" he says softly with a smirk on his face "I'm going to put him down, please drink your coffee" I smile "You've always been so sweet to me" He says smiling.

I put Finn into his crib and walk back over to David I sat next to him. He stared at me and smiled.

"No matter what you'll always be the most beautiful girl I've ever seen" he says staring into my eyes I blush and look away "stop".

"I'm so sorry" he says "Don't worry dave, It's okay" I reply "No, It's not okay. What I did to you was never okay I was going through so much mentally and the way I reacted was so childish. I should've told you to stay and work everything out with me. I'll admit everything I did to you was possibly the worst and you truly didn't deserve to hear all those nasty things I said to you. I don't even know why you told me to come here, you were smart to block me on everything. I wish I didn't mess everything up Nat.. but fuck I really miss you" I was silent "I miss you too, Every day that I wake up without you or even a text message that's not from you, kills me" I reply "Will you forgive me" he asks I know I shouldn't but instead I smile and say "Yes".

"I love you Natalie"

"I love you too David"