Trust Issues

Chapter 23: Fear

"Jas" I said lazily, exhausted from everything that happened tonight.

She looked up and sighed before walking towards me. She had a split lip, and a bruise on her left cheek bone.

We didn't touch, we stood in front of each other, taking in the sight of each other.

"You scared me." I admitted to her.

"Sorry...I couldn't control myself in a situation like that."

We stood in silence again.

"They let me off with a warning because it was provoked even though I swung first. I don't know, maybe the cop felt bad and he understood so he just said I could go."

I nodded.

I felt numb, like so much happened that it just drained all emotions out of me. Then she snaked her arms around my waist, holding onto me tightly.

"Are you okay?" She asked, concern painting over her voice.

I finally wrapped my arms around her neck, burying my face in her hair.

"Yeah...I just felt...gross, and embarrassed. I need time to process and honestly it's hard to tell how I really feel with the exhaustion."

She pulled back and kissed my forehead.

"I won't pressure you to talk about it now, you know I'm here for you no matter what." She replied.

"Thanks babe."

Like I said, with the tiredness and numbness, I couldn't quite put my emotions into perspective. However, I couldn't help but feel like a part of me was shaken by the absolute aggression that came of out Jasmine. She did a real number on the guys face, rightfully deserved of course, but still scary. I know she would never hurt me or anyone unless necessary, but I keep replaying the scene in my head.

"Well, I'll give you your space, I have to go make sure everyone at home is okay." Jasmine said in a sad tone.

I think she can sense my hesitancy towards her.

"I lo-...I'll see you later." I said. Though, that was not the phrase that almost came out of my mouth.

She hailed a cab driving by and was on her way home.

Cat was fast asleep by now but luckily she had left me a nice open spot on our tiny bed to share. When I changed and got into bed, I cuddled up into her side. I just needed my sister, you know? It's a whole different and special kind of love and comfort that only she could provide right now. That's what I needed.

***

It's been three days since the night of the incident and I decided I'll go back to work tonight. I let Randy know that I was alright and took these couple of days to rest and put my mind at ease.

Though, there was some sort of strange tension still between jasmine and I. We sent each other a couple of quick texts throughout the days, but not a proper conversation. It seemed as if it was not only my reluctance towards her aggressive actions, but there was something on her end too, I could sense it.

I called her over since Cat was in school all day.

Knock knock

There she was.

"Hi babygirl." She spoke hugging me sweetly, but quicker than usual.

"Hey Jas." I said taking a seat with her at our little dinner table.

"Are you afraid of me?" She blurted out immediately.

Though it caught me by surprise, I suspected she knew something.