The Light Inside the Darkness

Chapter Thirteen

For some reason, I have been having the hardest time falling asleep and staying asleep which is very odd for me but what is even stranger is that every time I close my eyes all I can see is his face. But each time I see one of his many expressions whether it is his smiling expression, or his terrifying dark expression, or possibly his smirking facial expression, or even his intrigued expression. He has so many wonderful and even terrifying expression and for some reason, I wonder if one day I will be able to see them all and get to fully understand him even better. He seems a lot different from the character from the book I once read because he laughs and has fun from being the grumpy and terrifying murderer who is extremely possessive of what he deems to belong to him but the person I have seen these past few times is someone who can be really sweet as well as very caring as well as funny along with a very teasing and of course terrifying at times as well as if this dark shadow takes control over his body as well as facial expression.

He has so many more traits then he ever did in the book itself and for some reason, each one is more interesting than the last one to me and everything about him is just so fascinating to me causing me to want to know more about him even if I already know quite a bit about his past and some of his transgressions from reading the book even if some of those haven't happened yet. But despite all of this I know that I need to keep him at arm's length even though all my heart wants to do is draw him in closer to learn everything about him and to keep that beautiful smile of his preserve forever if I can. But I know that is not possible because I am not the person who can do that for him I know what will happen if he gets too close and falls in love with Penelope again. After all, I know that will just send him into a downward spiral once again that lead to his tragic death in the first place. I don't know for sure if the things I have been doing have been helping to change him or not but as long as I can avoid all those useless deaths Daniel committed in the book. I don't want him to be considered a murderer when I have seen it for myself that he is a good person inside he can just easily be misguided due to his tragic past. And I want to do everything I can to help keep him on the right path to help him and hope he can find real love with a great person like Livitha Starlth or at least someone like her.

I got tired of trying to sleep to no avail since my thoughts continued to drag on haunting my resolve to sleep so instead of just laying in bed I decided it was time I got up and do something to help me get my mind off of everything that happened to me. Although I don't know what I should do that would help to ease my mind off Daniel because unlike this world they haven't made phones or the internet yet so I can't just go on my phone and play games or among other things like watching TV or anything like I used to. I sigh as I turn on my bedroom light since my bedroom door is shut it shouldn't matter that I am using the light in my room instead of a candle. I walk around my room and walk up to my desk and start looking through the drawers just for my random curiosity and I find exactly what you would expect to find inside of the desk for I found paper, some pencils, envelopes, and a couple of pens. Then I move on to my dresser for no particular reason all of this just to fill my curious nature just so I know where to find anything then I walk to my wardrobe and start looking closely at each dress getting a good image of everything I own when I notice a small box at the bottom of the closet. So of course out of curiosity I picked it up and opened it and inside of it was a pair of pink ballet shoes that you could tell was only slightly used.

Seeing those shoes was like a blast from the past in more than one way because before I came to this world when I was younger my parents had me start learning ballet although once I had reached middle school I ended up quitting. After all, it just wasn't all that fun even though I was always getting positive comments from all instructors about how quickly I was picking everything up. But I just knew this wasn't what I wanted to do with my life so I quit ballet but I did keep doing gymnastics that my mother signed me up for while I was doing ballet because it would help my flexibility that you need for ballet. And after I quit ballet I started practicing hip hop dancing for something a little more challenging but at the start of high school I ended up quitting that as well because I needed more time for playing soccer and eventually I ended up trying joggling both gymnastics, as well as soccer and school and I, must admit I wasn't doing a bad job at considering I managed to keep my grades to nearly straight A's every time even though it wasn't always the easiest thing to do. And while I was doing that I still kept some free time to study fashion and interior design since that is what I enjoy doing. I always loved how you make something out of nothing and how you could put two things completely different to make something very unique and perfect.