To The World I Close My Eyes To See | chanlix

Chapter Twelve

Having lost all sort of dignity when it came to Felix, Chan decided to talk to his friends about the weird dream he had the night before. The three of them were eating lunch together before Changbin had to go to the studio, Jisung to his lesson and Chan to the convenience store.

"You really seem out of it today? Did you not sleep tonight?" Changbin asked, watching as Chan seemed more lost in his thoughts than he usually was. That normally happened when he had new lyrics in mind or when he hadn't managed to fall asleep the night before.

"No, I slept just fine. It's just that I had a dream and I'm a bit confused," he confessed, knowing that after the teasing from his friends they would try to help him for real, "I dreamed of Felix."

"Hyung is so cute," Jisung cooed, making grabby hands at him which he slapped away immediately.

"I woke up, or at least I thought I did, and he was standing in the middle of my room, rambling to himself. I tried to talk to him but then the sound of my alarm started ringing in the dream and I woke up for real," Chan finished explaining, his voice just as confused as his thoughts.

Ever since he had woken up to the sound of his alarm that morning, he had a feeling that his dream had been something quite different. Mostly because, since he was a kid, he could never remember his dreams waking up in the morning so, the fact that this time he couldn't forget Felix's panicked expression didn't sit right with him.

"What was he saying?" Jisung asked, tilting his head like he always did when he was carefully listening to someone talking.

"He kept saying that it had to be a dream but everything felt too real for it to be one," Chan answered, remembering how Felix looked completely lost, "and it honestly did. I thought I had woken up for real."

Chan turned on his left to look at Changbin, taking notice on how the younger had been oddly silent, not joining the conversation at all. He also watched as Changbin was looking at him with furrowed brows. 

"What?" Chan asked.

"I called Felix this morning and he looked as out of it as you are now," Changbin ventured. "He told me about this weird dream he had tonight. He dreamed of waking up in the middle of your room while you were asleep. He said he knew it was a dream but it felt like he was there for real," Changbin explained carefully, each word spelt slowly. "He was so shocked that he even forgot to ask me about his soulmate."

"Wait..." Chan stared at him blinking his eyes. "We had the exact same dream? Just from two different points of view?" he asked, not believing his ears.

"I think you did. I don't know how it's possible for it to happen but it's the only explanation," Changbin nodded, confirming Chan's hypothesis.

"And once again, my friends, I'm the one who has to do all the work," Jisung sighed, shaking his head, not believing his friends were so clueless once again, "you really don't know anything about soulmates, do you?".

When Changbin and Chan shook their hands sheepishly, Jisung facepalmed.

"When two soulmates meet each other and are forced apart before both of them find out they are meant to be, they tend to meet in dreams," he explained as if it was something he was sure everyone knew, "it's quite rare because usually, soulmates are either friends or strangers to each other before finding out." 

Apparently, neither Chan nor Changbin knew anything about that because they looked at him with wide eyes as they always did when Jisung shared with them curious facts about soulmates they had never heard.

"So you're telling me that I've actually met Felix yesterday night and it wasn't just a dream?" Chan asked, his voice shaky. He still had to completely wrap his head around the fact that Felix was his soulmate in the first place, and now this as well.

"Well, technically, your souls met while you're bodies were still asleep in your own beds," Jisung specified, nodding his head as he spoke.

"And does this mean I'm going to meet him every night?" Chan asked hopefully, knowing Jisung was the one who had the most knowledge about what was going on.

"Sadly, it doesn't," Jisung answered. "Soulmates don't have rules, it's all about fate, but there's usually a pattern. I'm not sure of it but you two will probably meet every two or three days," he pointed out, explaining all those things his own mother had told him years before.

"I really can't wrap my head around this. It's insane," Chan insisted, rubbing his temples. "I don't even usually remember my dreams once I wake up but I remember every single second of this," he complained.

"That's because that wasn't a simple dream. That was literally something your soul has lived and so has Felix's," Changbin pointed out, amazed at how things were turning out for the both of them.

"Hyung, look at the bright side of this, you get to tell him you're his soulmate in person and actually spend time with him even when you live oceans apart," Jisung tried to make him reason with it. Chan knew it was something pretty great and he should have been thankful for it but, at the moment, he felt too scared to be happy.

"I'm sorry, guys, I'm just really overwhelmed. I found out just yesterday he was my soulmate and now this. It's just...a lot" Chan groaned.

"I'm sure it is," Changbin reassured, patting his back, "don't let this stress you out but don't waste your chance either, okay? He's my best friend and he cares about you a lot. He's probably freaking out because he has no idea what's going on, he deserves an explanation."

Now that Chan thought about it, Changbin was right. While he had both him and Jisung to share his doubts with, Felix had no one. Or at least, he did have Changbin but the older was being a good friend to Chan, not telling Felix anything, even though he knew more than what he had shared with his best friend. It was Chan's job, after all, to give him answers and the opportunity to deal with this particular situation together.

"Hyung is right, it's a blessing that you get to meet him and it's not fair to him to act like you don't know what's going on while he's the only one who really doesn't," Jisung added. 

Neither of the two wanted to make him feel like he was being scolded but they couldn't avoid thinking Felix was being left out of everything. Just as Chan was about to agree with Jisung, his phone vibrated on the table. It was probably one of Felix's powers to call or send a text whenever they were in the middle of talking about him as if he could sense it.

Lixie
chris can i video call you later?
i miss your face

"If he doesn't stop this I won't make it until next time we'll see each other," Chan whined, his forehead resting on his folded arms. He heard Changbin take his phone and put it back when both he and Jisung had glanced at the text on the screen.

"You know that he's as whipped for you as you are for him, right?" Changbin pressed, knowing his best friend all too well. Felix's actions spoke way louder than any other word could and Changbin knew it was just a question of time until Felix realised his own feelings. Changbin couldn't wait for the day Chan would finally tell Felix about them being soulmates.

Changbin's laugh rang in the room as he tried to dodge Chan's offended hand blindly hitting him to make him shut up. Jisung pretended not to notice how Chan's ears had turned bright pink at the mere thought.