To The World I Close My Eyes To See | chanlix

Epilogue

The car drive to Chan's apartment was anything but silent, four voices ringing loudly one over the other as slowly they all came to the realization that Felix was there, the excitement that it caused making them even louder than they usually were.

As much as Felix didn't like to admit that Changbin was right, he was dead tired and it didn't take long for him to start yawning and blinking slowly. Jisung and Changbin had made themselves comfortable in Chan's apartment too once they had reached it but as they saw the younger so exhausted, they both decided to let the couple alone for a few hours.

With quick goodbyes and the promise to meet soon, Changbin and Jisung left, leaving Chan and Felix alone in the older boy's apartment.

"I missed this place, it feels like it's been ages since I was here last time," Felix yawned as he looked around the house.

"It has been a pretty long while actually," Chan said, moving closer to Felix who was standing in the middle of the living room.

Chan put his hands on both sides of Felix's neck, cherishing the closeness now that they were finally alone. Felix looked at him with sleepy eyes but the fondness in them was still more than clear. The younger looped his arms around Chan's middle, moving even closer if that was possible.

"Hey there, love," Chan whispered, his voice not needing to get any louder for Felix to hear him in the quiet room.

"Hey yourself," Felix answered just as quietly.

Chan didn't need more time to make up his mind and finally joined their lips together in the kiss that signed the beginning of their journey together. It wasn't technically the first time they kissed but this felt different than how it did in their dreams. Everything in those was a hint for them to remember that they weren't awake, each thing they felt during those nights was almost held back.

As if only the reality could make them feel the full extent of their feelings.

Felix had to pull away as another yawn escaped his lips, blushing bright red when it was over. Chan chuckled fondly, his lips swollen and his eyes so full of love, "let's get you in bed, sleepyhead."

The part of the house Felix knew better was the bedroom and he was hit with a sense of nostalgia as he entered to find it exactly as it was the last time their souls had shared a dream. Chan must have noticed his uncertainty because he wrapped him in a hug from behind, nuzzling his head in the crook of Felix's neck who was still looking around the bedroom as if it was the most beautiful piece of art.

"Are you okay?" Chan asked softly, already guessing what was going on in Felix's mind because he felt the same every time he realised that the Felix in his house wasn't part of a dream anymore.

"I've just missed you so much. I missed all of this too," Felix quietly confessed, intertwining his fingers with the ones resting on his stomach.

When Felix seemed to have relaxed from the flood of emotions, Chan gently pushed him towards the bed. "Come on, you really need a nap," Chan said, soon following the younger who had laid in bed without a second thought.

Felix had his head pillowed on Chan's chest as the older carded his fingers through his blonde hair. As Chan's fingers made their way down to caress his neck, he stopped at the feeling of cold metal under his fingertips.

Chan smiled at the ceiling when he realised what it was. "You're still wearing the necklace," he pointed out with no intention in particular. His heart was so full that he just wanted to giggle and hold Felix close for every single second they had together.

"Of course," Felix snapped his head up, his tone almost sounding offended at the thought of Chan thinking he had got rid of the necklace. "I've never taken it off since the moment you put it on me," he said proudly, clenching his hand around the pendant as if he wanted to protect it.

Chan stared at him, at the boy he had wanted to hold close for so long and now was there, at the boy who had forgiven even the worst of his mistake and was ready to welcome him with open arms again.

At the boy he loved.

"I love you so much, sunshine," Chan whispered, overwhelmed by the amount of love he could feel for a single person.

The confession had always been clear in each of his actions but it had never been said out loud. The words waiting to escape until they knew things were going to be okay, now that they were together and were not going to leave each other sides, just as they had promised.

Feeling happiness overtake his body, Felix didn't tear up as he whispered those words back, "I love you so much too, Chan. So, so much."

Felix was smiling from ear to ear as Chan covered that smile with his lips, the feeling of each other pressed close and the confession now ringing in the air making them never want to pull apart.

From that day on, as they laid close every night and their marks burnt up against their skin, Felix came to a realisation. The fact that their souls had met to spend their nights together when their bodies couldn't, was something he was always going to be thankful for because it led them to where they were now.

Because it taught him that nothing could feel better than falling asleep in the arms of his soulmate, just to wake up the next morning with warm brown eyes looking at him lovingly and even warmer fingers caressing the mark they shared.

They had waited for so long but now time didn't scare them anymore.

Nothing ever could as long as they had the other by their side, just like they had promised.