The One Who Groom Likes (Taejin)✔️

Chapter 42

Turn the footsteps of your heart back to me,
I really want you, I will risk my life.
-It's definitely you, V&JIN

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Jin:

It's been 2 weeks that evening and now I'm back to Seoul. It was a vacation I needed to cool my head off. Gladly, Yoongi himself told me that I can quit the project and I did. So, now I'm free to focus on my restaurants. 

Alex has been supportive of me. I met him back in Paris. He is one of Yoongi's friend. He knows things which I haven't shared with anyone else, not even hoseok hyung. I like him and he does too. After ending things with Seojun hyung I never forced myself into any sort of commitment. But with Alex things become easy. Us starting as friends is the reason why I trust him with me. He confessed that he loves me last year and I decided to give it a try. We've been together as a couple for almost a year now.

He helps me with my insecurities because he knows me even more than I know myself. When I told him about the project and Taehyung being part of it he said he trusts me and I can do whatever I want to. 

But at times I feel like I don't deserve happiness. The love and care that I was deprived of my whole life suddenly came to me in shape of 6 feet tall man. It was hard at first. But we worked out anyway.

His family lives in America and Yoongi knows them really well. We went to America a month before we came here and I met his family. They are really sweet and accepting people. 

Now that taehyung knows everything I hope he stops bothering me. I don't want to lose my small happy world that I've built in the last 3 years. Never.

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Taehyung:

Two weeks. I think it's worse than the time I broke up with Jimin. The guilt, I don't think I can ever forgive myself for being the reason for his tears. Grandpa says I never asked about him. How could I? He left. I rejected grandpa's idea of us getting married. I can't imagine how embarrassing it was for him, grandpa and everyone who wanted that to happen. He was begging me to stay but I left. I was ashamed.

It's not that I didn't look for him. I went to his house but it was already sold and nobody knew where he went. I called Seojun but he refused to tell me where he was. I wanted to know the answer but I lost the courage. 

But now that I know everything, I regret every moment that I wasted. If only I looked for him. If only. 

Had it changed the present? Had it changed your feelings? My subconscious asked me.  

Feelings? We were friends, right? I respect him. If not for him the CEO Kim Taehyung would have never been here. I pretty much owe my success to him. I never allowed my Grandpa to get involved with my life before he came. It's funny how he controlled me just by triggering me like there was some remote control in his hand. But love? Do I love him? 

He doesn't want to see my face but I want him near me. I always loved how likeable he was and still is. My grandpa, DG and even Mrs Soo liked him so easily. How he used to bicker with me for the smallest of demands. Does missing that warmth all these years counts as love? 

I don't even know what love is anymore. Jimin stripped out my idea of love with his betrayal. It's like I'm new to all of this again. But one thing is I'm sure of. I can't let go. Not this time. Even if I have to beg for his forgiveness I will do it.

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just for some insight into their feelings.