Feelings through poetry

Poem 15 - Darkness surrounds

Being in this world,
Darkness surrounds.
Amongst all of us,
Who will reach the darkness,
And who the light?

Circling and circling
among this universe,
The world of illusion,

In this deaf world,
A leaf falls to the ground,
Seeing a person walking,
Neglected and hurt,

Heart cracked into pieces,
Like a porcelain doll.
The light doesn't reach,
Darkness surrounds.

The person cries out.
Who broke you?
Who shattered your heart?
They ask, just to get neglected.
Always there, they're nowhere.

Seeing a person walking,
Neglected and hurt,
Jealous but loving,
Who did this to you? Who ruined you?

Standing on the edge of the balcony,
A part of you dying,
Pulled you back just to see you crying,
A portion of you has jumped already.

A deaf unrealistic world,
Never existing universe,
A world of illusion.

It all seems so real.
Yet, none of it is.
I'd rather stay in my illusion,
Than face the real world.

Pulled you back, just to see you dying.
Heart shattered like a porcelain doll,
Who did this to you, who hurt you?
They ask, only to be neglected again.

In this deaf world, darkness surrounds,
Light far away, unreachable,
An endless abyss of suffering,
In which nobody cares,

Darkness surrounds. In this black word,
The colors have faded,
Can you find the pieces,
and fix what you broke?

Always there, they're nowhere.
Years filled with emptiness,
An endless abyss,
Tearing us apart.

Left there to bleed out,
Replaced, pushed out of your league,
I hate you for that.
I hate myself for that.

Moral of the story/about:
Based on feeling like none of this world is real. Like it's just an illusion we live in. Asking people who hurt them when they never do the same. Being there with people who are hurt, when they never do the same for you. Feeling shattered and depressed. Friend spending time with someone else and neglecting you, when you gave them your everything. Doing too much for someone who didn't even appreciate it. Being replaced by someone better than you.