Feelings through poetry

Poem 24 - Pointless

It's been so long,
And everything seems to be wrong,
And nothing is the same,
Everything became different,

Everything has changed,
The question is how to arrange,
Our lives to be the same?

Because nothing will be the same,
This will be a whole new world,
All the changes burn your eyes,

Is it too much to take?
How much happiness will you fake,
Until you just break?
You're not happy,
As you hide under this mask,
And who can blame you?

Isn't it strange, how everything is okay,
And then suddenly so wrong?
Nothing ever lasts forever,
Seems that nothing ever lasts,

You soon realize everything is useless,
Because why should it last,
When nothing does?

You realize nothing matters,
Because we're all going to die,
Not even our lives last,

Isn't it sad, how you have everything,
And then end up having nothing?
So you feel bad,
Telling yourself it's all your fault,
And you must've done something wrong.

But none of that matters,
Because everything will end the same,
And are you the one to blame?

Only once, you believe it's different,
It ends up being the exact same.
Why should you hope,
When you know you'll fail?

Even if you haven't failed,
Why did it end up the same way?
Why did you hope it will be different?
It's never ever different.

So you came to the conclusion,
It actually doesn't matter.
Maybe you'll start caring again later.

One failed try makes you feel sad,
Second failed try makes you feel bad,
Third failed try makes you feel mad.

What are you, a mat?
Allowing everything step on you,
Letting life beat you all over again.
If nothing matters, why should you care?
You let it be, nevertheless,
You don't feel happy,

And maybe, this time it will be different?
However, you always end disappointed.
Is there a reason to hope,
Or take the rope?

You let it be again, still feeling sad,
Why did you think,
Everything in your life would last,
When nothing ended that way?

Ask yourself, was it really nothing?
Did nothing really work out?
No, some things did,
Why do you feel like this, then?

You already are discouraged,
You don't want to try again,
What is the point,
In getting yourself hurt again?

There are times,
when you just hate yourself,
Why was this fate given to you?
Life opened this gate for you,
Only to leave you disappointed.

Don't you sometimes wish,
To be someone else?
You can cry,
You can sigh,
You can ask yourself why,
And it won't help.

You've tried so hard,
Why did it not work out?
What have you done wrong?
Why don't you just let it go?

What's the point in having friends,
When they all left you?
They're not the same,
You're not the same,
It's not them anymore,
It's not you anymore,

That is fine, people change,
You want to go back,
Because something lacks,
You're feeling lame,
But you can't change to the same.
You think you've changed,
And is that really the true?
Was it the people, or you?

What's the point in trusting people,
If they all break your trust?

All these things you thought would last,
But they fell apart too fast,
All you can do is look back in the past,
Because these good times are never coming back.