For A Day (Ko Shinwon FF)

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"hey yannaaaa are you excited for the party?" jangjun smiled as he caught up with me.

"yeah i am." i smiled.

"uh well, everyone is really nice i promise. it's your first time right?" he asked for reassurance and i nodded.

"i'm not used to going to parties so much." i admitted, shy of what i had to say.

"i've been knew." he laughed.

all university students atleast went to two parties or more, and i guess i should atleast try meeting new people and possibly making new friends.

i adjusted my glasses and looked over at jangjun, he was looking off into the distance having a small smile on his face. i smiled just by looking at him, but that smile soon wiped off my face as i realized he had a girlfriend.

i cleared my throat, "so how's you and joosun?"

"we're doing well, our next date is on friday." he smiled proudly, "arent you proud of me? all the years in highschool and i didn't even have a prom date.. except for you of course but that was just a friend thing." he laughed.

i nodded and my eyes went everywhere as i was trying not to think of what he just said. that really hurt me, so all these years he did think of me just as a friend.

of course, i shouldn't expect more right? i keep overthinking about things and i hate this side of me. my father always told me to not bring myself down because i am stuck with this image of mine, the only person who is believing those lies is myself. i'm my own enemy.

"how about you? when are you gonna get a boyfriend?" he was genuinely curious because although yana was shy and quiet, he knew a lot of boys liked quiet girls.

"when.. the times right i guess. your time came, now i just have to wait. plus i got myself so it's no worries."

"you sure? all my friends have a partner.."

i stopped in my tracks and looked at him, didn't know what to feel. "so just because your friends have partners, you expect me to have a partner?"

"yana, i never said that. okay? let me rephrase what i just said." he tried reaching his hands to calm me down but i moved further away from him.

"you know what, it's fine. i'm sorry you had to look down on me like that just because all your friends have partners and i don't.." i paused before he could say anything. "i'll see you at the party then." i emphasized the 'all' and left as soon as i said that.

shit. i just ruined the whole mood for today, for me and possibly jangjun.

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shinwon
is the party still on?

yana
well yeah, i technically said i'm going so..

shinwon
alright, what should i wear? something fancy or outgoing?

yana
i thought you've been to a party before

shinwon
haha surprise surprise nope. i don't like going out, everything scares me, the blinding lights to the popping confetti..

yana
you do seem manly in your photos though

shinwon
hahahahahahahah well don't judge a book by its cover :)))))

i scoffed at his statement, still using that 2016 reference?

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time to meet hitchcock mcguacker shinwon! can't wait to meet to beat up his annoying ass!

but deep inside i was AFRAID FOR MY OWN LIFE. he seemed so handsome, and what if he actually thinks bad about me? then again, i am totally not his type for his visuals.

my legs were shaking as i kept glancing up towards people, but maybe if i look down, i wouldn't be as scared.

suddenly, the sounds around me were faint and i looked up to see a bright light heading towards me. i stood up and squinted a few times trying to figure out what the hell that was.

"are you shinwon?" i asked as the blinding figure was coming towards me.

i adjusted my glasses and he anwsered just in time when i got a clear picture of him. "yes, and you are shin yana?" he smiled.

i blinked countless times and didn't realize i was standing there for too long till he waved his hand in front of my face.

"yeah yeah, i am." he was so perfect, like those anime boyfriends i've always wanted.

"well, now that we're here, where shall we begin?" he held out his hand and my small hand fit perfectly in his.

this was like a dream come true, except it would only last for a day.

wait what am i thinking?

my realization ruined the moment and i slipped off my hand.

"the hell you trying to do? hypnotize me?" i asked and he only smiled softly at me.

"why? did i hypnotize you with my amazing looks." he teased and crouched down to match with my height.

"don't do that.." i pushed my glasses up, "that's insulting." i frowned and he stuck his tongue out.

"so this is how you look." he said and i looked down, expecting him to say something bad.

"small and cute." he looked back at me and i looked up at him.

"small? oh yeah wait till' these small fists beat your pretty little face." i threatened and he backed up, almost hitting a vendor.

"i'm sorry jeez chill lady, i complimented you, so take it."

"okay thank you, donkey face looking head ass." i put my hands to my waist and walked off.

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i'm so bored at homeee :( anyone got netflix recommendations?