Illusions [Ateez x Reader]

Chapter 13

Going to KQ the next day was something I was really dreading. When I woke up this morning, I ripped myself from my bed and stomped into my closet, pulling on a fluffy turquoise sweater, white skinny jeans, and my turquoise Converse. I walk down the stairs and head to the kitchen, pouring myself a cup of coffee and sitting down at the bar area in my kitchen.

      I push my coffee to the side and slam my head down on the counter. It hurts, but I'm awake now. I push myself back up and off the chair, walking sluggishly to my room. I toss myself onto my bed and scream into one of my pillows.

     "Why the fuck did I have to work with them!"

     I sigh angrily and pull myself up, grabbing my bag and heading out the door. I walk to KQ as slow as possible and enter the building, going straight up to the recording studio.

    "Good morning!" I exclaim with a very fake cheery voice.

     Eden and the others turn to face me. "Hey Y/N!"

     I set my stuff down and take a seat in the chair by Eden. "So, what are we doing today?"

    "Today," Eden drawls our. "We will not be working on music."

    I look at him, confused. "Okay... so why am I here?"

    Seonghwa speaks up. "We wanted you to watch us practice our dances for a bit to the songs we recorded."

    "It could help you figure out if you need to change anything to fit the dances," Wooyoung adds quickly.

I think for a second. "Yeah okay, I guess that works."

The boys let out little sounds of excitement and a roll my eyes.

Mingi comes up to me and grabs my wrist, dragging me to their practice room with the others in tow. "Mingi! Let me go this instant!"

Mingi lets go and I fall back onto a couch that was in the back of the practice room. I glare at him.

"What?" Mingi chuckles. "You told me to let go!"

I scoff. "I told you to let me go, not give me a heart attack!"

"Sorry." And with that, Mingi ran off to the front of the practice room with the other boys. I rolled my eyes again, but a tiny smile made its way onto my lips.

I watched them practice the couple songs I had recorded with them. They all looked so into the music and it was amazing. Everything was so fluid. After the songs I recorded, they worked on some songs they had already put out, so I decided to put my headphones in and just watch. I need to learn a song for my next music video anyways.

The boys had stopped practicing and started to mess around. Yunho, at one point, ran up to Jongho and tossed a small bit of water into him, causing Jongho to sprint after him. Yunho ended up hiding behind me, with Jongho stopping in front of me.

I turn around to look at Yunho behind me. "Oh no no no. Get your giant body out from behind me! I am not your shield."

I moved to the side and let Jongho attack Yunho. Eventually, he grabbed him and began to walk away. "Thanks Y/N."

I sat back down on the couch and pulled out my phone. I would occasionally look up and see the boys joking around. It was an entertaining sight to see, I must say. It almost makes it hard for me to be mad, almost. I looked around the room to see all the staff had left. The boys began to get in a small formation then a couch makes my attention go directly to them.

"Do you guys need something?" I question in confusion.

Hongjoong shakes his head. "No, but we have something for you."

"It's an English song we learned for you," Yeosang finished.

I nod my head slowly. "Okay?"

The boys all took deep breaths and looked up at me.

Oh, I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

     I froze, I knew exactly what song they were singing.

'Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

   I look at each boy individually. Each of them were staring at me like I was the only person in the room.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

    Tears began to fill each of the boys' eyes and I could feel my eyes get misty, but I just blinked it away.

This time, I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

'Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

The raw emotion coming from those lines is enough to let my tears run down my checks.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

    I put my hand over my mouth, trying to keep my sobs from being heard. I could hear a few of the boys' voices crack from the emotion.

Every single day
I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah, I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

    When the song closes, the boys all look straight at me. Tears are filling their eyes and a few of them let their tears fall. I, on the other hand, am sobbing. They've said sorry before, but not like this. This seems believable.

    "We uh know that forgiveness takes a while," San begins.

    "But we wanted you to know that we are sincere," Yunho concludes.

    Seonghwa steps forward. "We love you so much. And we hate ourselves for what we did. For what could have happened because of us."

    I cringe at the reminder.

   "But we want to earn your love, not matter how long it takes. We will stay as long as it takes," Yeosang assures me.

     "I don't know what to say," I finally sob out after a long pause of silence. "This was the nicest thing anyone has done for me in a while. Thank you."

     Smiles break out onto the boys' faces.

    "I'm ready to try and forgive you," I whispered. "But please don't hurt me."

    "We won't ever hurt you again," Hongjoong replied. "We promise."

  
    Don't break it.

-Can anyone guess the song? Without google?———