Illusions [Ateez x Reader]

Chapter 15

      I do not dread going to KQ today at all. Which is weird for me, but I don't hate it. Anyways, I drag myself out from my bed and force myself up. I need to record a video today, so I had to wake up earlier than I wanted to. I move to my closet sluggishly and out a fuzzy baby blue sweatshirt, white jeans, and a pair of white slip on Vans. I head to my bathroom and fix my messy h/l h/c hair.

     Heading across the hall to my recording room, I pick up my guitar and look through my song book, trying to decide which of my songs I want to use. Eventually, I pick one and set up my camera to record it. I go and stand in front of my microphone and begin to sing.

  

And if I fall along the way

pick me up and dust me off

And if I get to tired to make it

Be my breath so I can walk

And if I need some other love, then

Give me more than I can stand

And when my smile gets old and faded

Wait around, I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated

Just hold me and then

Oh, just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent?

I'm so scared that I'll never

Get put back together

Keep breaking me in

And this is how it will end

With you and me bent

And if I couldn't sleep, could you sleep?

Could you paint me better off?

And could you sympathize with my needs?

I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded

Just phoning it in

Oh, just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent?

I'm so scared that I'll never

Get put back together

Keep breaking me in

And this is how we will end

With you and me bent

Start bending me

It's never enough till I feel all your pieces

Start bending me

Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated

Just touch me and then

Oh, just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent?

I'm so scared that I'll never

Get put back together

Keep breaking me in

And this is how we will end

With you and me landin' without understanding

Hell, I'd go there again

Can you help me I'm bent?

I'm so scared that I'll never

Get put back together

Yeah, you're breaking me in

And this is how we will end

With you and me bent

[time for another round of can you guess the song]

    I stop the recording and put my guitar down, setting it carefully to the side. I upload the recording onto my computer and save it. Slowly, I go back through the video and edit the sound quality a little more so it would be more clear. Afterwards, I get back in front of the camera and start recording again.

    "Hey guys," I wave at the camera. "So, I hope you all liked the song and I have a surprise!"

    I pause for dramatic effect.

   "I am giving you guys what you asked for and will be doing a meet and greet here in Seoul!"

    And with that, I shut the camera off again and edit that video onto the end of the song video.

   [that moment when you have Netflix playing in the background while you are writing and it asks if you are still watching.]

    Anyways, I check the clock to see that it is time for me to begin heading to KQ, so I quickly upload my video and grab my bag. I leave my house and speed walk to KQ Entertainment. Before I head up to the recording studio, I head to the coffee area they have in the building.

    "Hey Lukas!" I call out to the boy.

    He turns towards me with a smile. "Hey Y/N! What do you want?"

    "Oh um, I'll have a f/c/o [favorite coffee order] please," I respond politely.

    "Okay," Lukas nods and goes to make it. "Hey, are you still working with Eden on that project here?"

    "Oh yeah," I admitted. "I think I will be here for a while longer to work on it. It's a pretty big project. Anyways, I have to go now."

    I wave goodbye and head away from Lukas and up to the recording studio. When I enter, I see the boys there, but no Eden.

    "Hey guys. Where is Eden?"

    "Oh, we technically have a break for the next week or so,' Wooyoung answers.

   I raise my eyebrow. "So why am I here?"

    "Because, we figured these next few days could be our bonding days," Yeosang answered quietly.

   "Oh?"

    "Yeah," Seonghwa nods. "And I was hoping that we could start today with my day?"

     I freeze for a second. "O-oh um, okay."

    "Wait really?!" Seonghwa exclaims.

    "Yeah sure," I shrug, trying to make myself seem calm.

    Seonghwa smiles widely. "Okay then, lets go."

    "Where?"

    "It's a surprise," Seonghwa answers mysteriously.

    And with that, I am dragged out of the room by Seonghwa.

[guess who's dying of boredom]