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Part 15

Cole's POV:

We talked for a whole hour

C-"When are we telling Ella?"

L-"We can tell her today. My family is thinking about coming here to visit next week when we finish filming. And I was planning on telling them all together."

C-"Ugh...Lil... I kinda already told your mom. Sorry, it was an accident."

L-"Oh... well my sisters don't know... we can surprise them."

C-"Yeah. And I have an idea for telling Ella, a way she will understand."

L-"Well, have you thought of any names? I have a list."

C-"Well, I think-"

We ended up discussing names, most of them we didn't like. We gave up, this was not going to be an easy task.

L-"Well, let's find out the gender first okay? I don't want to get to fixed on a name."

C-"Oh ao you are no longer 100% sure it's a girl. "

L-"Well, I'm just trying to figure out an excuse."

C-"sure. Well, I forgot to tell you but I might be getting a big photography gig. Pretty sure it's for vouge. With maybe Kendall Jenner? didn't really read it through. Well, I have a meeting about it tomorrow, I am still not sure if I'm agreeing to it. "

L-"Are you JOKING? Cole, you have to take it! I mean why wouldn't you."

C-"I have my reasons... well, if you are SO sure about it ill say yes."

L-"Good, then you can take me on set and I'll meet all these amazing women. I'm excited."

C-"Oh now I get it"

L-"Shut up."

Crew- "Lili! we need you on set!?"

L-"see you later love."

We ended up wrapping up early and chilled at home for the night. We went to bed early since we had to wake up around 4:30 to be on set. From then onwards, it was a blur, we worked scenes on end, not eating or seeing Ella for hours on end. Cole left for his meeting and only arrived around midnight when we were about to head home.

C-"Hey love, how was the afternoon?"

L-"Tiring, and I missed you."

C-"Missed you too. Let's order Chinese, I'm hungry."

L-"I just wrapped up, we can go home."

C-"Where's Ella?"

L-"Asleep."

I saw his expression. He HATED when he got home too late and Ella was already asleep.

L-"So... how did it go?"

C-"I got it."

We drove home, cole was getting extra touchy and even though I had nothing against it, I knew it meant something. We got home and he got nachos ready, with salsa, guacamole, and cheese. HE never got all three, he said it was a waste of dip, so today he really had something going on.

L-"Is this to celebrate?"

C-"Yes and no."

L-"spit it out I'm tired."

C-"So... I got the job, it is a really big deal to me and I promise that when you see my paycheck you will not be sad."

L-"But?"

C-"Well... there are 5 sessions to this photoshoot. All scattered around the next year."

I knew where he was going. It was either Ella's birthday, my birthday, Easter, Christmas-

C-"Well, the first sessions are all right, 24th of march, 10th of April and 15th of June... But then, the 4th shoot is on the 6th of august and the last one is ... on... the 5th of September... your-"

L-"Due date. Well, you talked to them and changed that right?"

C-"Well, um... not really. But Ella was a preemie right, and twins never get to their due date."

L-"Yes Cole! but guess what? the doctor said the 2nd counting that they would come a few days early and if they do come before that date they are going to be newborns!! and I need help taking care of them don't you think?!"

C-"I will only be gone for like 3 or 4 days Lil, relax."

L-"Easy for you to say, Cole! You are not going to have your vagina ripped open, two newborn babies and a 3-year-old to take care of. ALONE?!"

C-"You can call like cami or mads."

L-"AND I WILL!! but you should figure out your priorities Cole, I thought you felt bad for missing out on Ella's first years, but apparently you are okay on leaving me, whether it is at their birth or at their first weeks."

C-"DON'T play the Ella card, Lili, you KNOW how that makes me feel terrible."

L-"And it should! But apparently it doesn't make you feel as bad as missing out on a stupid photography shoot. Cole, you are talking about your children here do you realize that!?"

C-"Well, photography is my PASSION, and this is a huge thing for me, is THAT so hard to understand? "

L-"Well, I thought you loved your daughter, both your unborn kids and me more. And I thought that you would have at least a tiny bit of respect towards me since I am going through HELL in my pregnancy. But guess what... Cami is right... Men are just the sperm, they never care about what we have to go through after that. And YOU! You can go and take useless photos whenever you want, and be that never present dad, who no-one knows the name and only appears when is most convenient. Be that person if you want to... but don't expect us to wait for here you."

I was more than mad, I was furious, there was nothing I could say after this, my brain stopped and just told me to leave, but I cole and I promised that no matter how mad we get... we can't leave the house without figuring it out. So I left and went into our bedroom. I sobbed at the thought of giving birth and Cole not being there. I imagined both babies crying and Ella having a fit, and how I would never be able to handle that. Abortion. If we weren't able to figure things out, it had to be abortion. I locked the door and fell asleep before my brain exploded with anger.

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Hey guys!!

So... I am extremely bored so if anyone wants to talk :)

I just had my first full day of online classes, and I fell asleep twice in my morning class. I hate being at home. 

I will update tomorrow probably since I have nothing better to do.