Be More Chill, Hamilton, and Dear Even Hansen x Reader

Ghost! Connor x Best friend! Reader-Last Goodbye

At first, I didn't know why so many people loved Connor, but then I saw he was played by Mike Faist and I completely understand now. Also, sorry that my grammar and spelling sucks. I try to correct it, but I'm not perfect. Anyways, enjoy this one-shot! 

I hugged his jacket. It smelled like pot and freshly-brewed coffee. I still couldn't believe that my best friend, Connor Murphy, was dead. 

I sobbed as I went through his stuff. Memories flooded back as I went through everything. Like the Ninja Turtle nightlight that he had in his room when we had sleepovers. I smiled a bit as I recalled him and I playing Ninja Turtles, and that nightlight would keep the bad guys away. Connor was my only friend, and I was his only friend. We were known as the freaks. 

The losers. 

The geeks. 

The...whatevers. 

I picked up a photo of Connor and I at the movies. I sighed as I recalled us seeing (favorite movie.) That was on the day of the Halloween dance. The other kids were so mean, we decided that we didn't want to go to their lame g-rated dance. 

I was done going through everything and was about to leave the room until a chill ran down my spine. 

Connor's POV 

Two days ago I killed myself, and the only one who cared was my best friend, y/n. 

You would think, "Connor, I'm sure your parents are sad, right?" 

Nope. They moved on to this kid named "Even Hansen" who claimed to be my "seconded best friend." 

Bull crap. 

Everyone else hated me. Heck, my own sister hated me. 

But y/n came around. 

Sure, y/n isn't the most popular or pretty girl out there, but to me, she's everything. That was the only thing keeping me from killing myself these past years. But I was high, and my feelings got the best of me. 

She'll never love you, Connor. 

Your just a sad stoner. A freak. Y/n wouldn't date a guy like you. 

Maybe just kill yourself so you don't have to see her with someone better than you, like that Jake Dillinger. 

The voices in my head got so bad, so I ended it all. 

Now I was selfishly standing there, watching the girl I'm in love with sob her eyes out. 

As she was leaving the room, I noticed a picture by her feet. It was one of us last year, at Halloween. Y/n a musical dork, (to be honest, I am too) and decided we should go as Alexander Hamilton and Eliza Schuyler from Hamilton. I remembered a note I wrote on the back of the picture. I wanted her to read it as my last goodbye to her. 

Your POV 

I rubbed my arms a bit from the cold chill, and I heard a voice that sounded almost identical to Connor's saying, "Look down." 

As freaked out as I was, I looked down by my feet to see a...picture? I must had missed it. 

The sudden chill left the room as I picked up the picture. I shrugged, thinking it was just my imagination. I looked at the picture. I immediately recognized the picture from last Halloween. I smiled, thinking of the fun time Connor and I had reenacting "Helpless." I was Eliza and Connor was Hamilton, of course. Everyone mistaken me for Cinderella and when they did, Connor made sure to tell them they were all "uncultured swines." I giggled at the memories, and I flipped the picture over to the back. I saw a small note was written on the back: 

Y/n, my Eliza, every time I see you, my heart goes BOOM!❤️ 

I gasped and dropped the photo. Did Connor...like me? He was NEVER the one to show feelings, especially love. He had to be high when he was writing this, right? 

I felt a sudden chill travel down my back again. The same voice came again and said, "Goodbye, y/n, I love you~~" 

"NO! Wait, Connor, are you here? Don't leave me—" 

The chill went away. I sighed and looked down at the picture on the floor. Maybe this wasn't my imagination. Maybe that voice was Connor trying to tell me something...

I smiled and grabbed the photo, gently tucking it into my pocket. Goodbye, Connor, I love you too... 

I hope y'all are staying safe out there! Our town is on quarantine rn and it's a bit scary. Remember to wash your hands and stay inside because listening to musicals in better than being social any day! Anyways, stay safe and have a good day! ❤️🦙❤️