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Chapter 12
It's in the Details
Maggie
My day was productive, easy and fast. I don't think I realized how much I would be absorbed into my work once I got going. I just fell into the story and rolled with it. See the characters in my mind, watching the scenes play out as the words flowed through my head to my fingers and onto the page. I got a full chapter written in my book, laundry washed, dried and put away, dishes done and I cooked a great dinner for one. I'm energized and excited to write tomorrow and the next day. My world is starting to move now, the way I want it to be. With my writing in full swing and with him.
Trent
I caught myself wanting to talk to him at times throughout the day. I even picked up the phone several times to tell him about a part of the book, something I read and saw on TV, but stopped myself from calling him. Trent said he had a busy day, his hands are full and the last thing he needs is a needy woman in his life. Especially with an ex girlfriend and maybe his child. We agreed to go slow, my request not his. I can't jump blindly into this knowing it could all blow up in my face.
I'm not getting hurt like that again
We talked very little about this before I left his place this morning. Left, I basically ran away from him when he asked me to stay. Trent made it clear that he wasn't interested in renewing his relationship with her, his ex, but if Zoe is his.... that could and would change everything. He wouldn't have a choice, but to have some sort of interaction with her. If Zoe is his, she would and should come first. I can understand that completely, but then would that mean everytime Adrienne calls, Trent would go running too?
I guess worrying about this won't help. It won't change the outcome. We can only wait for the test results to come in and then get a plan. I like plans, details about who, what and when. The how's and why's can get murky but I have to know them. I plan, make lists and get details. That's my strength. The details. I don't have any when it comes to this situation and it bothers me.
I'm not usually such a worrier. With details and plans I haven't had to be, not in my adult life anyway. I've had enough thrown at me growing up that I've learned to compartmentalize problems. I take them out in pieces and deal a little at a time in full detail. Looking at the entire picture at once overwhelms me. I know this and I know I don't deal well with it. So baby steps it is. Step one, accept right now Trent and I are just friends.
Friends that kiss
Pretty fricking amazing kisses too. And we've slept in the same bed. Snuggled and kissed. That's not how I should define this, but it's what I've got. He said he wants me, more than friends but that was before I put my foot down on moving us too fast. He agreed to be friends with me, for now, he agreed to slow down and with Adrienne here, now, she could ....
Stop Maggie! I'm getting overwhelmed again.
Friends is a good start. Friends don't screw each other over. Friends are honest and upfront about what they want. They don't lie and hurt you. It's a foundation to build on. I didn't have a foundation with Parker. There was no ground, no base of friendship but we went straight to bed. I was dazzled by being wanted. Swept away with the idea of romance that those big flashing warning lights in my head got ignored. For too long I didn't want to see what was in front of me. I did that no one else. So now I'm going back to who I was, examining the details, setting a plan and focus on the small pictures and not looking for a future. Not with a man, it's too much, too scary to think of getting drawn in that way again.
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