quite fucked up

Chapter 42

He changes into only a paar of shorts and I wear one of his T-shirts.
We lay down on our bed and then Brook rolls up my shirt and starts talking to my belly.
B: Hey are you in there? Hey baby girl. I hope you're good. This is your daddy. Me and your mommy and your brother Blake can't wait for you. Oh yeah you have a brother his name is Blake and he is gonna be the best big brother ever. You guys are gonna do so much fun stuff. Okey let me tell you about your mommy. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and I'm so lucky that I'm gonna marry her. She is the best part of me and hopefully you look a lot like your mom because that would instantly mean you will be beautiful which you will! And my name is Brooklyn my friends call me Brook and your mom calls me Brooky. I'm your daddy and I will protect you from everything that's gonna come. The boys are gonna have to face me first. Okey I will tell you about your uncles another time because I know that your mom is crying from happiness.
And when he looked at me the only thing he did was laugh because he was right I was crying. 
Y/n: That was so cute! I missed this so much!!!
B: Me too! I loved this!
We cuddle for some minutes until we both fall asleep.

~The day he found out~
I woke up with a weird taste in my mouth. So I stand up and walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth but the moment I enter the room a sick feeling overcomes me. I run to the toilet and throw up. I wait a few seconds until I feel better again. I look in the mirror and think that I look a bit pain so maybe I'm just sick but then that thought runs through my mind.
*What if I'm pregnant again?*
Brook and I had sex a few times without protection in the past.
*No it can't be! Right?*
I decide to be sure so I go up to our room and put on some clothes. I check if Blake's okey and he's still asleep so I close the door again. I get in my car and drive to the pharmacy. On my way I think a lot about the time I was pregnant and when I arrive there I get a few test. I pay and drive back. When I arrive everybody's still sleeping clearly I mean it's only 9:00 on a Tuesday. I think to myself and laugh quietly. I go into the bathroom and take the tests. I wait for a few minutes and when I look at the results I start crying. And exactly in that moment sleepy Brook walks into the bathroom but he is completely awake when he sees me crying on the bathroom floor.
B: Baby what's wrong?!
He says and looks around for tissue but sees the pregnancy tests. When he sees that they are positive he smiles but when he looks at me he looks a bit upset. He sits down next to me.
B: Baby what's wrong?
And then I realize that he thinks I'm upset about the results because he is crying.
Y/n: Ohh no baby! Everything is great. I'm not sad I'm just very happy.
B: Ohh good because I wanna have another baby with you and I thought you were upset about being pregnant.
Y/n: No it's the opposite. Today I woke up feeling sick so I bought the test and while I was driving I thought about the time I was pregnant. And I could only think of moment that I was happy. I was with you and was about to start a family with the love of my life.
B: Ohh I'm sooo happy you wanted to start a family with me because I was so nervous the whole time you were pregnant because I always thought: what if she one day wakes up and thinks I don't wanna raise this baby with this boy!
Y/n: Oh baby believe me there was never a moment were I thought that. And now that I'm pregnant with YOUR baby there will also never be a moment where I will think that.
B: Have I ever told you how much I love you?
He asks with a funny voice.
Y/n: No I think you have never!
I say in a goofy voice. He smiles and leans in to kiss me. We get interrupted by Jack.
J: Why can't I have this!? I just want someone that wants to kiss me when we are sitting on the bathroom floor! Is that to much to ask?!
Me and Brook laugh and stand up. I grab the test and throw them in the trash so that Jack doesn't see them.
B: No it's not.
Y/n: It's not but why are you in our bathroom?
J: Ehmm I need to go on the toilet really bad and the other bathrooms are occupied.
Y/n: Okey then we're better gonna go.
We leave so he can go on the toilet and we walk downstairs to make breakfast for ourselves. And so tell Brook to keep it a secret for now.