Simply Because

A change to my new life

Rosalia: "The other day Michael and I were......." Laughing and smiling at the table was my so called 'friend group', or in reality just a group of people who share common traits and interests. This friend group consists of 10 people, although I barely interact with 5 of them. They are merely in this group because they have nowhere else to go. We are outcasts as they call us, outcasts who come together. But I would be lying if I said I didn't enjoy their company as all people do.

Rosalia : "So who's up for going to my place during school break?"

Michael: "Sure I'll go and Daniel here as well" Michael cheerfully and forcefully raised my hand up

"What? When did I say..."

"Ok. Then that's settled, who else?"

As usual I got cut off again, supposedly being the leader of this band of outcasts I guess you could call me the biggest outcast of them all, but I'm not.

Rosalia: "Alright, let's go out for lunch since school's out."

As we stood up I caught a glimpse of Jasmine and her friends, I recognized most of them, a typical girl group not popular but not disliked, guess she's in the same boat, but she's still doing 100x better than me.

As we all strolled along the road following Rosalia's lead, man she really is such a strong force of optimism, it's almost too strong sometimes, but well I'm not one to complain since most people call my pessimism too strong as well.

Michael: "Ah! What do I do? She was really cute today!"

Rosalia: "Yes yes that's what you always say Michael" Rosalia jokingly exclaimed.

"It's like I said man," I interjected into the conversation.

Daniel: "You don't know anything about her, nor have you even engaged in any conversation with her,  your chances are 0%, as usual."

??? : "I'm sorry I don't like you that way, you're a really nice guy honestly but let's just stay friends."

Daniel: "Oh. I see."

Trudging along the corridor as I looked down at the floor, I thought to myself : (It's just a rejection, don't get so worked up.)

Tears streamed down as I stood at the corner of the school toilet, trying to regain my composure.

Even today that scene still plays over and over in my mind. It's been 2 years since that rejection, but I will probably never forget about it, it was my wake up call to the harsh reality of this world and the true nature of high school relationships. Call me salty or just butthurt, but that hurt has allowed me to understand what people in school society truly are like. 90% of people in school are superficial, caring only about looks, that's why the gap between close friends and romantic relationships are so hard to break. Many girls love to be comforted and pampered by people who constantly tell them how much they are needed, but when you confess they instantly take a 180 degree turn.

Rosalia: "Still bitter about that rejection? It's been 2 years man come on, it's time to move on from the past, there are plenty more fish in the sea."

Daniel: "I'm not bitter, how many times have I said that. I'm just convinced that youth isn't the best time to get into a relationship, that's all."

"Yes yes got it boss." Rosalia starts laughing

Jun: "Well fatty, if you would just lose some weight maybe you would do better!" Jun exclaimed. He was another one of the outcasts in my group, but was one I hated interacting with and almost never did.