Poison •E.killmonger

Chapter 22

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Amashumi anambini ananye § 22
Split decission
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Staring at the wine glass half filled i feel a soft hand on my knee and i'm met with warm hazel eyes.

"You can't keep thinking about Erik, Sekai. The more you think about him the worse things will seem" he tells me putting his lips on the bottle of wine taking a long swig.

He was right... absolutely right and i sigh plopping back onto the pillow dropping my hands on my face not believing i went against N'jadaka like this. If he found out he would kill me and him.

"Luca i know but... i've never went against him like this. Never went behind his back to do something" i frown pushing my curls out my face and he looks over at me before sitting on the edge of the bed.

"...yikes"

-2am that previous morning-

"Erik...?" I question watching as he paces back and forth angrily his heavy steps against the hardwood floor. He doesn't say anything and honestly i don't even think he hears anything I'm saying.

"N'jadaka" i state more boldly and his pacing halts temporarily but his eyes don't meet mine.

"You have to leave" he tells me and the gruffness in his voice makes my heart fall into my stomach.

"W-what?" I stutter not sure i even heard him right. His eyes slowly trail up from the floor to where I'm standing to meet mine the only light from the moon cascading over only one side of his face, had this been under different circumstances I'd say he looked like a villain ready to tell his backstory.

"In the past 48 hours you were almost raped & kidnapped, had to almost kill the nigga who did it and then almost killed. Sekai it's not safe" he speaks sharply and I want to snap back and defend myself but the look he's giving me is almost sad... like he's begging me not to argue with him.

"And we both knew that it wouldn't be an easy mission when we were preparing for it so now just because a few unexpected things happen you want me to run like a dog with my tail between my legs" i feel myself getting fired up at just the thought of it and my fingers begin itching to break hit grab or squeeze something.

"I'm not putting you in any more harm's way, what if I can't protect you—" he starts and I roll my eyes stepping closer to him, poking my finger against his defined chest.

"I don't need protection. I was doing just fine before I met you!" I yell at him, my finger turning into an open palm and I shove him with more force than either of us anticipates since he shuffles back.

And I realize it wasn't so much the force of my push but instead my words that caught him off guard.

"Were you really?" He asks before storming off into another part of the house and I feel instant sadness, regret— pain. The minute he's not next to me it swallows me whole, consuming every muscle and thought and all i want to do is fall on my knees and cry.

Had he been keeping me strong the whole time? Longer than just the past few days on this trip?

-Eriks pov-

"Cousin!" Shuri beams excitedly into the phone oblivious to the rage I was shaking with probably more so excited about america.

"Go get T'challa and Okoye. NOW. I dont give a fuck what theyre doing get them NOW" i tell her and she begins pressing things on her keyboard as i rub at my face.

Fucking Sekai man. The minute i stepped away from her i just wanted to kill, tear everybody limb from limb, splash in their blood and dance on their grave. I didn't realize it but she had been keeping me—