He pulls my lower half closer to his so i could FEEL just how much he ment the next part, my breath getting caught in my throat. "If i were you id take precaution"
"She'll drive you right out of your mind and steal your heart" he sings grabbing a ha...
(A/n: i feel like i shouldnt even have to say it anymore but morning breath doesnt even exist in wakanda😂)
"Since when did you get so feisty?" Malika questions popping a strawberry in her mouth. Sighing I lean back against the wall my head making a thud sound as pain shoots up my skull.
"Its like hes calmed down since he's been around you and you've gained the fire you needed around here" she claps which i smile sadly at, it still felt wrong.
"I dont know but i miss him and i feel stupid that i do, ive never really argued with him but— dont look at me like that" i glare at malika who has a big grin on her face.
"You like him...like him like him. More than you've ever liked any of the other trash bags you've dealt with before" she speaks astonished and I nod truthfully. Being around N'jadaka was thrilling it was exciting and never a dull moment there was so much more to him then the anger he displayed. He was actually really smart and even funnier he could be gentle and most definitely had his sweet moments.
"But you hurt him Sekai, his life was torn when he lost his dad. I'm not sympathizing with him because he killed klaue, the man responsible for my parents death, but i am because I know what it's like to lose my parents. If you had said that to me I might have killed your ass on the spot" she tells me truthfully which I groan at slouching lower.
"So im suppose to be okay with him calling me naive?" I ask which she quickly shakes her head at.
"Absolutely not! If you want, I can shoot him in his spine! But you do have to take credit for pushing him to that point...Sekai he's never put his hands on you, lied to you or done anything to intentionally hurt you even after you talked about him like that and probably made him feel like you turned on him he was still willing to accept the fact that what he did was wrong. He didn't want to hurt you" she tells me making me swallow. I know she wasn't scolding but it damn sure felt like it.
Had someone told me how to mourn my mother I would have reacted in the same way he did, been sucked into blinded rage and pain and lashed out.
The guilt sunk in. I was turning into a spoiled brat with N'jadaka, it was clear he wouldn't do anything to hurt me and i knew he'd listen to whatever i said and a part of me enjoyed the power. I forgot he was still hurting, he hurt different, he expressed his pain different and it wasn't something that would heal overnight. Dealing with T'challa on a day to day basis probably made it harder for him to cope and here I was poking at him making it worse.
Standing up from the wooden floor i stretch listening to my bones crack and slip on the first sweater I can find. On days it rained the palace had been a much cooler temperature.
"I will be back" I tell Mal whos packing up her stuff instead of stopping she sends me a dismissive look.
"Trust me when i say you aint, just make sure you wear protection!"
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