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REPLACE ME

REPLACE ME

"I'm so inlove with you Zaire. Hindi ko alam ang mangyayari sa buhay ko kapag mawawala ka." I smiled when I heard what Reign said. She's my girlfriend for almost 3 years.

We're always sweet to each other that everybody say it's too much. But, I don't think it is. I just love her that much.

"Love!" Tawag niya kaya nangunot ang noo ko.

"Hmmm?" I hummed as I looked at her.

"I love you very much.." Napangiti ako sa tinuran nya.

"I love you too.."

Our relationship became stronger..

Or am I just only thinking it is?

"Give me a break Zaire." Seryosong usal niya. "Nakakasawa na. Kapag naging ayos na ang lahat pangako, babalikan kita." Kahit masakit pinakawalan ko muna sya.

Panandalian lang naman eh. Baka kailangan lang nang pahinga. Siguro...

Nakalipas ang isang buwan hindi sya nagparamdam.

But, I understand. Naniniwala ako sa pangako niya na babalik siya.

BUT..

I was wrong.

One day he texted me to meet her up. I'm so excited that time because I assumed that she will came back to me.

But when I arrived at the meeting place, I saw her with my brother...

They are so happy. They look as if they're the only person in the coffee shop.

"R-Reignn.." My voice broke and I still trying to hold back my tears.

Her gaze suddenly dropped on me and I swear, I didn't see anything on it. The love and care she always shows when we were still together.

"What's the meaning of this?" I asked even I know the answer. I just need clarification. I need a prove. Baka nagkakamali lang ako.

"I'm sorry.." She started. Doon palang, sunod-sunod na tumulo ang luha mula sa mga mata ko. It's like, saying her goodbye. "I know, we've been together for many years but maybe we are not meant to each other."

"What are you trying to say? Diretsuhin mo na! Nasasaktan na ako, eh.." My voice became weak. My knees trembled  because of the pain I feel.

"I'm breaking up with you.."

Those words. I never knew I will hear it from her. The woman I love the most, is now breaking up with me.

"Zack, iwan mo muna kami. I can do this." My brother left us after Reign said those words.

"B-but w-why?" I asked holding up my tears.

"Akala ko k-kasi...." Huminga muna siya ng malalim bago nagpatuloy. "..akala ko kasi enough na ang space para bumalik ang pagmamahal ko sayo but I was wrong. The day that I met your brother I fell inlove with him.." Pagkukwento nya.

"Why you didn't tell me? Bakit kinakailangan mo pa akong pagmukhaing tanga?" My voice seems too low.

"Kasi alam kong masasaktan ka." She's crying and I don't want to see her crying!

"Putangina! Sa tingin mo, hindi ako nasasaktan ngayon?!" Sigaw ko at sunod-sunod na tumulo ang mga luha ko. "Reignn naman. Sabi mo di mo ako kayang mawala sa buhay mo? Pero bakit ngayon?" Puno ng hinanakit na sumbat ko.

"Dati yun Zaire. Yun yung mga panahon na mahal pa kita.." Humihikbing sambit niya.

"Bullshit! Nangako ka! Nangako ka kaya umasa ako!" Panunumbat ko. "You said that we will just rest pero what happen? yung panahon ba na binigay ko para magpahinga ginamit mo para.. para palitan ako?" pinunasan ko muna ang luha ko bago nagpatuloy. "Sabi mo gusto mo lang ng pahinga hindi mo naman sinabi na maghahanap ka na pala ng iba.."

"I'm sorry." Sinenyasan niya si Zack kaya lumapit sa kanya ang binata. "Be happy.."

Be happy? How I should do that when my happiness just fucking let me go? How should I feel that if she's gone? Naging kampante ako na babalikan niya ako pero hindi ko naman alam na magiging ganito. I'm so stupid to let her go instead of loving her more.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE
I know loving is also need to bear pain. I never had a relationship or loving someone romantically, but I know love is so stupid sometimes. Loving is painful. You need to endure it because at the end, it's always happy ending. We need to let go of someone we're not meant to be with.