It's Complicated... - H.S

Chapter 17: Shot Down.

A/N: so I decided.... Harry and Goldie's ship name is Hadie.

Hunter and her ship name is Huntigold..

BEFORE YOU READ THIS CHAPTER.....
Are you team Hadie?

Or team Huntigold?

HARRY'S POV:

    I've felt antsy since she left. I've had a hard time focusing, I've had a hard time completing little tasks unless they're paintings of her. This is the best work I've ever done, and I've gotten incredible grades on all of them. It's easy when I'm painting someone so beautiful though. It's been easy to use her as my muse, and I know I've subconsciously done it for so long now, but now it's focused and it's true. She doesn't know it though. She always joked about it, but I actually took it to heart, and I've never had an easier time with artwork.

I've told Kelly I'm busy practically all weekend since she's been gone, and now I'm counting down the seconds until she's back practically. It's boring without her, and I've been giving her the space she wanted... The space she deserves because I was a dick. But she's coming back now. The door opens, and I look over the back of the couch to see her come in but it's not the image I thought.

    "Goldie... Hey, hey what's wrong?" I ask quickly, and sit up. She looks at me, and her face falls which makes my heart sink. She comes to me quickly, and I don't understand it. She asked for space, she asked for me to leave her alone, and I did, but now she's moving to me. She obviously needs comfort. She walks around the couch, and I sit on the edge, looking at her. "What's going on?" I ask, and she practically falls into me. I open my arms to her, and she buries her head in my neck, her hands cover her face, and her small body sits on top of me.

I freeze for a moment, confused, and worried but as I hear her soft cries I wrap my arms around her, a confused look on my face. "It's okay... I don't know what's going on but it's going to be alright..." I mumble. She continues to shake, her cries are soft but they're pained, and sad. "Come on... let's get you changed, and let's calm down, and then we can talk about this." I mumble, and start to move but she clings tighter.

I move back down, and just hold her. I move my hands over her back, and one of my hands threads through her hair, softly holding the back of her head as she cries. She's tiny in my arms, and when she's like this she's even smaller.

She's only done this once or twice since we've been friends, and I didnt think when she came this would happen. I thought she'd go in her room, and turn her music on, and that would be the end of it. I sit, and I rub her back, whispering comfort to her softly until her cries become softer.

"Carson... Carson passed away yesterday..." She mumbles, and I freeze under her. I didn't know him like she did. Of course I knew of him, but she spent as much time with him as she did me. She practically spent every moment with him in high school.

"What... What happened?" I ask softly, and I still haven't seen her, she's still pressed against me.

"He had cancer... He never said anything, and he had cancer, and he passed away from it yesterday. We were supposed to have a going away party Saturday, and he never showed up, and we found out he was in the hospital, and he passed away, and I never got to say goodbye, and I never got to see him Harry.. He kept telling me to come home, and I never did, and I didn't see him, and-" She starts shaking again, and I hug her to me.
"Shhhh, calm down, take a deep breath love..." I mumble, and she cries again, letting it all go. "Even if you didn't get to see him, he knew how much you loved him... He knew, there's no way he didn't see that." I remind her, and she sucks in a sharp breath.

"I just can't believe I'll never see him again.." Her voice is barely above a whisper, and my heart shatters. Hearing her this broken hurts more than ever right now. I wish I could take it away.