It's Complicated... - H.S

Chapter 33: Begging.

A/N: Sorry for a later update! I've started writing a new story called Cherry. Please if you want to read it that would be super cool(:

Also... I hope you really savor these chapters... There's only a few left... Sadly....

SMUT WARNING BRUH

HARRY'S POV:

    I straighten out the flowers on the island for her, and the small gift is in my hands as well. She's gone through hell these past few weeks, and none of this will fix it but it might make her smile at least.. I'm so afraid of pushing it with her, of scaring her, or hurting her.. I know that he violated her, and that can make things tricky between us so I don't want to overstep. I don't want to make her feel like I'm forcing her, or not giving her a choice.. I want her to feel powerful, for her to make the moves right now. The door opens, and I turn around, smiling, but instantly dropping that smile when I see my angry girlfriend coming straight for me.

    "Why are you mad at me?" I ask softly.

    "Why are you acting like you're going to break up with me?" She fires back, and I almost have to take a step back at her words.

    "Ex-Excuse me but what are you talking about?" I shake my head, and she rolls her eyes, turning away from me so she can pace the floor.

    "You won't kiss me. You've hardly touched me, last night I don't even know what the hell that was about you not wanting me to be dependent or whatever, and then this morning you just disappeared without telling me first? What the hell is going on?" She crosses her arms, and turns back to me.

    "Goldie I'm not breaking up with you.. I couldn't do that.." I mumble softly, and she shakes her head. " I was gone this morning because I... Well I got you these." I move back, and show her the flowers. "And this.." I hold the box in my hands, and her features soften a bit. "I'm sorry I'm being distant I just.. I know that you've been going through a lot and I didn't want to hurt you more or scare you or upset you so I figured I'd just give you space until you came to me, and-"

    "It didn't feel like space, it felt like regret..." She fires back, and I sigh.

    "I'm sorry... Used to I'd just move you where I wanted, and I'd throw you over my shoulder, and take you places, and do things, and I just feel like I shouldn't do that anymore I feel like.. I feel like I can't have control because you need all of it." I tell her honestly, and she swallows. "Am I right?"

    "The thought of having someone else... A man especially having control of me does make me nervous... But not when it's you." She tells me, and I tilt my head.

    "I'm not following.." I mumble and she steps forward.

    "I like it when you take control.. I want you to take control." She tells me... "It scares the hell out of me but if anyone can, you can show me that it's okay when it's with you." She explains, and she steps forward again. She takes her bag off of her shoulder, her fingers moving to her shirt, unbuttoning the soft buttons and I watch as she does. My mouth is watering while my mind is telling me to stop while I'm ahead. "So what are you waiting for? Take control.." She mumbles, and I watch her hands move but slowly shake my head.

    "Goldie I-"

    "Harry. I want you to tell me what to do. I want you to tell me what you want. I want you to take control, full and total control. If I want you to stop I'll tell you. Please... For me." She leaves her shirt unbuttoned and looks up at me as she slinks it off of her shoulders revealing a lace bra, and her perfect skin.

    "This isn't a good idea.." I mumble to her, knowing that if she was under my touch right now she wouldn't be asking me to take control. I've held back with her.. The first time we had sex I held back, and then she took control... I don't think I can hold back anymore, and I don't need this hurting her, I won't let it.