The Underground - 3RACHA

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The first thing Jisung felt when he woke up was guilt. Yesterday had been great, a day with just him and Changbin full off laughter, getting to know each other and... kissing. That was the root of Jisung's guilt because before this month he'd never kissed anyone, but now he'd kissed two boys and had feelings for both of them. He didn't know how to comprehend what he was feeling. He didn't know what time it was, but the fact bright sunlight was filtering through his curtains told him it was quite late in the morning. When the phone started ringing he didn't want to answer it, but he was the only one home on a Friday morning and nobody else was going to answer it.

"Hello?" Jisung mumbled, still half asleep after grabbing one of the house phones from his bedside table and rubbing his eyes.

There was a chuckling on the other line that made Jisung relax and fall back against his pillows again. "Sorry, did I wake you up?" Chan asked.

He hadn't woken Jisung up, he'd been lying with his eyes closed for about ten minutes now, trying to ignore the expanding pit of guilt in his stomach, but nevertheless, Jisung found himself mumbling an "uh-huh."

"Sorry, baby," Chan said, causing Jisung's eyes to snap open again and his cheeks to burn furiously. He'd never been called that before and he liked it...but then he started to feel guilty again because what about Changbin? Would he have reacted the same if Changbin called him that? He knew he had to sort out this problem soon. "I was wondering if you and Changbin wanted to come around before The Underground tonight? I can try and help you work on your rapping a bit more?"

Jisung wanted to say no. He didn't want to be stuck in an apartment with the two boys he was having a dilemma over, but saying no would only raise suspicion so instead, he found himself saying, "yes, please."

Chan chuckled, "ok, come over at five then."

-

Jisung had ended up sitting on the sofa, between the two boys he had kissed not so long ago with a guilty feeling in his stomach. He flinched whenever one of them moved, scared they would do something that would cause the other to be suspicious, but they never did. If anything, Jisung's nervousness caused the most suspicion, but it was ok because he was going to tell them tonight what had happened and then it was up to them to make up their minds about what to do. Jisung didn't want this to continue any further because although he technically wasn't dating either of the boys, he felt awful. He just hoped they wouldn't hate him afterwards and he'd be left alone with Hyunjin as his only friend again.

"Jisung, do you want to try rapping again?" Chan asked. Jisung quickly shook his head. He didn't have the confidence or motivation today, all that he could think of was the mess he had created. "Ok...Changbin?"

Changbin chuckled, getting up from where he sat next to Jisung, "what do you want me to do? Just rap for you?"

Chan shrugged, "sure, it'll let me know where you're at."

"Ok, Mr Therapist," Changbin smirked, standing in front of the two boys. "So just like...freestyle?" Changbin asked Chan.

Chan shrugged, "anything you want."

"Ok," Changbin nodded, standing on the spot for a few moments, swinging his arms back and forth as he composed himself. Finally, he found what he wanted to say, and the first verse started to flow from his lips like it was the most natural thing in the world. Listening to him made Jisung tear his eyes away from the floor they had landed on and he looked up at Changbin again. He was mesmerising, lost in his own world as he spat out the words. When he finished, he looked between Chan and Jisung hopefully, but Jisung looked away again, back at the floor.

"Did you freestyle that?" Chan asked. The lyrics were amazing, everything fit together perfectly with something clearly meaningful behind it.

"No," Changbin admitted, "I wrote that two years ago when I actually knew what I wanted to say..."