Promises--Hemmings

chapter thirty-two// "You and I"

A/N THIS IS A FILLER IM SORRY!!! ITS A LOT OF GOOEY AND OHEY LOVEY DOVEY STUFF!!!!!!

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 I sat on the bathroom floor, Luke looking down at me. I had a balde in my hand and it felt like it was my only friend. He looked at me in utter disgust. Looked at the blood running down my arm in embarssment. 

He slowly walked away, leaving me, abondining me like an old couch, like my biological parents or my Dad. 

"STOP LUKE PLEASE DONT!" I cried but he left.

"LUKE PLEASE! LUKE!" 

***** 

I woke up to Luke's calming voice telling me it was okay and that I would be okay. 

“I’m so sorry” I saidsobbing into my hands, trying to hide the shame.

Those two words I have said far too many times, at the wrong times to the wrong people.

“I’m sorry I’ve put you through this. This meaning my crazy, overwhelming, and depressing life. I’m sorry you’ve seen me cry. You’ve seen me cry, breakdown, you’ve seen me right here, laying on the ground dyeing. You’ve seen me in some states that no person should have to see me in. I’m sorry for making you do this, go through with me. I can’t tell you how sorry I am. And I could go on and tell you I’m sorry. I don’t know what to do. I want you and I know you want me but I’m so sick and embarrassed that you have to see me like this and I just don’t get how you can still love me after all we have been through, most guys give up by now. I love you but…..I don’t know Luke, I’m just so sorry.

Luke sat down on my bed, the whole time silent. Not saying or doing anything. He breaths heavily. He’s like a stone sculpture, hard as rock, mysterious, scary yet filled with so much inner beauty and meaning. If you lost grip, he’d plummet to the bottom. If you’re lucky He’d go under without breaking into pieces. He’d still be dazed and faded and chipped but he’d wear a crooked smile.

“First off I want to thank you.” Luke said leaning forward, foot tapping nervously and eyes face smudging back whatever emotions that were on his face.

“Why? Why Thanks?”

“You didn’t let me finish. I’d like to say thank you. I have a lot to be thankful for. Thanks for walking into my life and staying in my life even when things got dark and eerie. Thanks for loving me and respecting me and allowing me to be yours. God, thanks so much for that. Thank you for allowing me to be the guy who gets to hug you from behind, who you rant to and cry to. Thank you for letting me be the guy who’s always on your mind, the guy who you’re afraid to loose. Thank you for letting me be the guy who’ll kiss you in the rain, buy you food and flowers just because. Thank you for allowing me to be the guy who gets to touch your butt whenever I want. Thanks for having me be the guy that gets to show you off in front of my friends. Thank you for EVREYTHING, THANKYOU for letting ME love YOU, for trusting ME with YOUR heart. Thanks so much my love.

“And Shel baby, second, loving you is amazing and even if I watch you leave so you can be “happy” even then, I’ll still love you. And if I love you that much, than I guess that means I should fight for you. You want me to leave so I can be “happy.” Well I’m happy just the way I am. I’m happy being yours. And I’m staying. I’m not going anywhere soon. I can’t promise you that things won’t be broken but I can promise you that I’m not leaving you. And yes I totally just quoted sleeping with sirens even though you know that I HATE scremo music. But I don’t care because I love you.”

I had tears falling down my face. My hands in the air, I asked, “Why me? You deserve better, so much better than me. Why do you love me?”

Luke smiled softly, sarcastically, but softly. “You don’t know already? I know you do but I’m going to go ahead and tell you.”

“You know when you crinkle your nose and knit your eyebrows together when you’re confused? That’s why. When you snort when you laugh or when you squeal when I tickle you? When you jump up and down and dance all around just because your favorite song came on? When you cry and fall in love with a book? When you get so caught up in a romantic movie like titanic? Or how you scowl at me when I play games on my phone? Or how you despise the word burgundy? You know when you fall, tripping over your own feet and you sit on the ground, head falling back laughing at yourself too? Those are just a small handful of the reasons why I love you. I love you because you’re awkward and weird and funny and absolutely dorky, stupidly nuts, yet still beautiful and amazing with a twist of sexy.

That laugh of yours? It’s so cute and sexy. How you care so much and so deeply about me? I love that. I love you so much. And I know many will tell us were too young to know what loves about but we have it and I want to block out all the people who look down on us because it’s You and I. I thought I was in love before. But then I feel in love with you and I can’t even begin to put into words how much I love and care for you. Thank you for letting me love you. “

I fell into his arms, like I’ve done so many times before this, His arms wrapped around me and he pulled me close to his body. He rubbed my back and wiped away my tears. He held me tight and it was like the hug was taking away my breath but that’s impossible because he already took away my breath. Whenever he hugged me it was like all my broken pieces were coming back together. I looked up into his wondering eyes and just looked in awe at him and how he was mine.

“I love you Lucas.” I smiled even though I was still crying.

“I never ever, in a million years thought I’d end up loving myself and find someone who loves me and then me, love that person back. And I never thought it would be the same person for all of it. You have taught me how to love myself and now you love me and I love you too. Lucas you are MY miracle. You’ve promised, so much and you kept those promises. I love you and I’m so happy that we love one another.”

He picked me up, spun me around and our lips were together.

We landed on the couch in a messy and beautiful tangle or limbs and love. He held me as our mouths opened and our tongues were soon together. It was no war, no one person’s mouth trying to gain control against the others. They were together, in sync.

It was him and I, breathing heavy, the taste of him still on my lips and the scent of him all over. There was no need for sex or things of that nature. If we really wanted to, we would but for now just being next to one another is enough. Just being in love was enough.

"Just you and I baby." Luke said kissing my forehead.

"Promise?"

"Do you even have to ask anymore?" He joked.

"But yes, I promise, you and I, forever and always baby."

A/N

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