Promises--Hemmings

epilogue

Luke's POV 

I wish I would have followed her. I wish that I hadn't stopped for Michael, that sounds horrid, but maybe this wouldn't have happened. This meaning the car crash...the one that Shel was on. 

I miss her. It aches so much, I can't talk about it.... I can't breath, I don't know what to do at the moment. I just want her to wake up. For me to tell her how sorry I am and how much I love her. Loving Shelby was like nothing I have or ever will excperiance again. Loveing her was more than just seeing the real her. Loving her was also beliving in who she was. You can get to know someone and still hate them, still dought them. But with Shelby, she belived in me and I belived in her. We didn't fully belive in us, I mean we did but we belived in one another more and that we each had to do the right thing to make it work. 

I love her. It rips my heart yet bulids it back together in the same strange way. I'll never let go of that image in my head. Her face didn't have any makeup on, her favorite band tshirt on, her hair flying, wild and crazy and her laughing at something I said. Shelby, she has many sides. She has the quite and shy side, the depressed and suicidal side, the happy and free side and than she has this side where its evrey emotion put together. No matter what side, what emotion feeling she is feeling, I love all her sides. Evrey emotion I love her. Its not harder to love her when shes crying or when shes angry. It makes us stronger. But I love her when shes real, as in when shes not fake smiling when shes just her. 

 You can't explain love when your really in love. Im in love with her, really in love and I can't explain how amazing and wonderful it feels. To know that she loves me for me.....and that she didn't take her life and I saved her and she saved me....I could never repay her for what she has done for me. 

I Just want her to wake up. 

So I can at least tell her thankyou.