Without You -BakuDeku Omegaverse

~ELEVEN~

Hey everyone! I am so sorry for the level I stepped into for the last chapter. This one starts out in the same manner, though not nearly as dark. If you skipped the last chapter for the TW, I will refer back to it, but in much muted detail. Love you all, read on! Hope this one cheers you up ;) 

"Katsuki! Open the fucking door!" Midoriya's words cut through the layer of ice that was still settled on Bakugou's heart. He sobbed, the sound of metal clattering to the floor as he moved to unlock the door. He was barely able to react before he had a ball of green fluff in his face, arms snaked around his waist as the solid mass kept him upright. Pulling him from the bathroom with more force than was necessary, Midoriya ended up sitting in the hallway floor with Bakugou in his arms. He was whispering "It's okay. I'm here" over and over though the blond couldn't really hear him over the severity of his sobs that broke out. 

"Oh god, I would have killed you too. I'm so selfish" He cried into the Omega's shirt, gripping the blazer he wore with more force than he should. 

"I'm okay. I'm fine. I found you. You're okay" Midoriya kept his mantra up, rubbing circles into the male's back as they lay curled up in the hallway. "What the hell did you think that was going to accomplish, Kacchan. You scared me" He said with a stress in his voice that Bakugou hadn't heard before.

"The ice. It hurt so much. I just wanted it to go away. I wanted it to stop" He sniffled, his sobs quietening as Midoriya began to nuzzle into his neck while he was held. 

"It hurt me too. But you can't get out of it like that. It only would have made mine worse" Midoriya frowned, pulling back to meet Bakugou's crimson eyes. The whites of his eyes were tinted pink, the underneath swollen from the tears. Red streaks matched the tears that were continuing to leak from his eyes. Midoriya's tears had stopped, his face entirely too calm. 

"You said you weren't okay the first time. I didn't know that we'd had a bond then" Bakugou sighed, his words quiet as he spoke, his throat still sore from the howling and from the sobbing. 

"I didn't know that's what it was. When you cut me off, and the scenting stopped, and you weren't around anymore, I started not being able to sleep. I stopped coming to school and I couldn't stop my panic attacks. My mom did everything she could to help, but it wasn't enough. I felt cold, numb, and alone. I just wanted you back." Midoriya sighed. "So when you started bullying me, I was upset, but the panic attacks actually happened less. I could sleep again at night. I sought you out everyday, even though I hated being scared of you. I still am, I can't lie" He offered the blond a small smile.

"And you didn't tell me?"

"I tried! But you were all high and mighty up on your Alpha pedestal. You were okay without me. And I wasn't going to mess that up for you. Kirishima and Todoroki liked you. You had any Beta you wanted in the school"

"I was not okay without you. That's why I came back to bully you. I couldn't get you out of my head. So I punished you for my thoughts. And I can't imprint on Betas. They were just distractions from this bullshit bond that obviously got worse after your heat" Bakugou's anger was picking back up as he shook his head, his eyes narrowing at the male holding him. He wanted to push Midoriya away. But he didn't. He just sat there, his hands bunched up with fistfuls of Midoriya's jacket. 

"Tell me, Kacchan. Do you really hate me? I will leave you alone if you do" The ice ebbed under their skin as he spoke, grabbing Bakugou's attention as he glared at Midoriya.

"I want to say yes. I want to forget about you, but I can't. Why can't I?" Bakugou wanted to do a lot of things, but he kept his grip on the male's jacket.

"The same reason that I never gave up on you all these years. Kacchan. What we went through as kids wasn't just some bond. I know you hated saying it, but I love you dumbass. We have spent our entire lives together, and a break up is going to hurt, no matter how far along in the relationship it is" 

"I don't want to hear about our relationship" The blond sneered at the word as he forced himself to move, leaning against the wall now, his legs still tangled with Midoriya's.

"Kacchan. My feelings aren't going to change. I just need you to figure yours out" He huffed, staring at the blond in front of him. The ice had faded completely. And Midoriya felt warm after having scented the blond while trying to comfort him. 

Bakugou thought about it while they sat there in silence. He didn't know how he felt. He'd spent so long being mad over something that neither of them could even control. And yet, here Midoriya was in front of him still, holding out his hand. He was always there. Always willing to help, even if Bakugou truly didn't need or want it. He looked up from the spot on the floor that he'd found interesting to meet Midoriya's wide eyes. 

"Don't move, nerd" Bakugou growled lightly when he shifted towards Midoriya and his first reaction was to shift away from him. The blond Alpha placed a hand on the back of Midoriya's neck, pulling him closer so he could nuzzle into his scent gland. The Omega released his scent into the hallway, the smell calming Bakugou almost immediately. He bit his lip as he picked his head up.

"Kacchan, wha-" Midoriya was cut off by rough lips pressing against his own.