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A house party.

Students in the hallways are talking about a house party, and I happen to be lucky enough to catch the address, time and date of the event.

Tonight, seven pm.

Students seem to be excited about it, especially the fact that you don't need an invitation to get in. It's open for everyone, which instantly makes me decide to go as well. I've only been to small parties with just a couple of friends so far, so I'm not too sure what to expect. However, it sounds like the perfect opportunity to get my mind off things, and I suddenly know how I can get the break I've been longing for.

There's no hesitation in my mind, I'm going for it and that's final. I can always leave if I don't like it, right?

"Ji? Are you okay?"

I quickly look up, only to find Seungmin looking at me in concern from his position next to me. "You're spacing out again."

"When am I not?" I dryly chuckle, playing with the pencil on the desk in front of me. "I mean, it has always been a habit."

"Yeah, you're right," Seungmin mutters, giving me one last concerned look before focusing on his notes again.

We're currently in class, and I'm hardly surprised that I have no clue which subject we're currently in. I'm guessing literature, but it might as well be English or whatever. I'm not paying attention at all, my notebook is empty, and I know I'm going to fail if I don't get my shit together soon.

It's almost hilarious what one stupid boy can do, isn't it? Probs to you, Lee Minho.

I absentmindedly doodle on the pages of my notebook, my mind wandering to tonight once again. I'm not going to tell anyone that I'm going. Not Felix, not Seungmin, nor any of our new friends. They'll definitely try to stop me, while I just want to do something stupid for once. Where's the harm? I deserve a night to forget about everything, right?

I can already imagine their reasoning, and how Seungmin would just take my key and lock me in our dorm room without any reasoning at all.

I know fully well that it's their way of showing that they care for me, but sometimes I just want to do what I want, stupid or not.

"You really are scheming something," my best friend hisses, now eyeing me suspiciously. "I know you too well, Ji."

"Then you also know you won't be able to stop me," I shrug, closing my notebook with a soft thud. "I just need some distractions, Min. It's driving me crazy."

Much to my surprise, Seungmin nods, not questioning it any further. "Just don't do anything too stupid, okay?"

"No promises," I reply, grinning as if I'm just joking. But I am not. Going to a party with the intention of getting drunk is pretty stupid.

The cherry-haired boy seems convinced and focuses back on his work before the professor can call us out or kick us out of the lecture -not that I would mind, but Seungmin definitely would. So far, he's definitely the most invested in studying out of the three of us, but that isn't much of a surprise. It was exactly the sane during our high school days, and I lost count of all the times Felix and I begged Seungmin to let us copy his notes because we were too busy with other nonsense to pay attention. The first week of college is no different so far, both Felix and I not focusing at all for entirely different reasons.

Felix is back in his state close to being a lovesick puppy, after I almost literally pushed him towards Changbin earlier today during lunch. I get it, Felix is upset because the boy didn't say anything about Minho's... situation, but I told him it was fine at least a hundred times. I don't want to be in the way of Felix's happiness, and I'm definitely not going to pretend I didn't see the longing in his eyes whenever he saw Changbin. I simply did what I had to do, and now they are at least talking again.