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48

In the span of barely a few days, my college life literally turned from pretty miserable to amazing. Finally, I had the energy to stress about homework anf assignments instead of stressing about seeing Minho everywhere. I never thought I'd say this, but I'm relieved that typical school stuff is on top of my stress-list now.

No longer does a broken heart stop me from enjoying my time here. I can focus on lectures a lot better –though I still find myself being distracted sometimes, but for entirely different reasons–, my friends could finally stop worrying about me, being on the campus was fun, and seeing Minho in the hallways now brings me happiness instead of pain.

Our groups of friends get along well enough to spend most of the time between breaks together, and even the ones that were a bit wary of Minho at first now treat him like a friend as well, which makes me really happy. To be fair, I was a bit worried about having to choose who I'd spend my lunch breaks with but that all turned out just right. 

Everything is as it should; complaining about homework instead of feeling empty, stressing over assignments instead of blaming myself for what I thought of as being dumped, and having fun with my friends instead of dragging them down into my puddle of sadness.

There's only one small problem.

Minho still has his loyal army of girls, and the fact that we casually act like we're just friends and nothing more isn't exactly helping to keep them away.

They are everywhere, circling around like vultures waiting for the random guy to leave their oppa alone. Most of them don't really bother him as long as I'm around, but they're all over him as soon as I take one step away from him. And then there's the group of girls that doesn't even care that I'm there; shamelessly clinging to him and talking in a way that makes me want to throw up.

I'm dying to show them that he isn't available, but I do everything to fight that urge. I know he hasn't come out yet, and because of his past I have no idea how openly he wants to be about it. If he wants to keep it a secret, I'm okay with that, and I'm willing to try to live with his army of fangirls for as long as I need to.

I'm ready to put up with a lot, just for him.

Sighing quietly, I enjoy the warm rays of sunshine that tickle my face. It's a free period for a few classes, and I'm sitting outside with Minho and Felix. For once we decided to ditch the shadows, and took a seat on a sunny patch of grass instead ("We aren't vampires, and I miss the Australian sun," was Felix's complaint when we went outside).

Said orange-haired boy is shamelessly sprawled out on the grass, eyes closed and a lazy smile spread on his face as he too relishes in the sunshine. Minho is sitting on one side of the boy, while I'm on the other, which basically turns my best friend into a human border that prevents me from attacking Minho with a big hug –something I really want to do.

"Sung, why are you spacing out?" Minho asks, trying to draw my attention by waving a hand in front of my face.

"Oh, he does that a lot," Felix replies before I can speak up, opening one eye to look at me. "Especially after meeting you."

"You know that you're in no position to properly defend yourself if I were to do anything to you now, right?" I question, narrowing my eyes at the boy between us.

Honestly, comments regarding me being smitten for Minho don't even bother me anymore at this point. They have become a part of my life, with mostly Felix and Chan reminding me constantly that I'm making my thinking-about-Minho face again, and Seungmin kindly reminding me that I'm not exactly hiding my crush.

What's the point of hiding my feelings when it's fully obvious that Minho is as whipped for me as I am for him? I am a lot of things, but I'm not that stupid.

"Oh no, a rabid squirrel is going to attack me," Felix dramatically wails, cluthing his chest in feigned fear. "Someone come to my aid, I'm so scared."

"Squirrels can bite," I deadpan, threateningly pushing myself up from my seated position a little.

"Okay, calm down, tiger." With a disgusted face, my best friends props himself up on his elbows to send me a look of dismay. "I have no desires to be bitten by my best bro, I'm not into that stuff so let's not go there."

"Felix, what the–"

Sticking out my tongue in disgust, I push Felix away, only for him to land flat onto the grass again. He instantly rolls onto his side, curling up in a small ball of laughter.

Minho and I exchange a quick look, totally not judging the boy who is now gasping for breath between the laughs he heaves out. It wasn't even that funny and Felix is already dying of laughter. 

The older got used to his chaotic behavior pretty fast, which is a must when you're practically together with me. Though Felix's antics still confuse him every now and then, he deals with them pretty well and I think it's safe to carefully call them friends already.

That also goes for Seungmin, though he was a bit more reluctant to forgive and let go of what happened between Minho and me. He remained wary of the sophomore for a while, but they are on better or even good terms now.

"Felix? You good?" Minho questions, quirking a brow. "Is the idea of Jisung biting you really that funny?"

"Just let him be, this is normal," I sigh, softly kicking Felix's leg to get him to stop. One quick glance around is enough to tell that multiple people are staring at us and though Minho and I are both used to being the center of attention –for different reasons, but still– it would be nice if they just minded their own business.

"I'm fine, don't worry about good ol' me," the orange-haired boy breathes out, finally getting a grip on himself. He pushes himself up again, this time for good. Once he's on his feet, he dusts off his pants before straightening his back.

"I just remembered that I promised Binnie hyung to meet him halfway through this free period, so I gotta go." With a slight wave, he walks off, but not without muttering a smug be safe, kids.

"I–" Minho starts, staring at the boy disappearing in the distance. "What a whirlwind."

"You can say that again," I mutter, heaving out a small sigh. Honestly, the boy's shoulder looks really inviting right now, and I just wanna rest my head atop of it and enjoy the sunshine like that together but I don't want to cross the line of actions that could pass as platonic. It's a particularly thin line, and making Minho uncomfortable is the last thing I want.

"Sungie, I kind of have to go as well, I'm sorry," Minho speaks up after a minute, smiling apologetically. "Are you free tonight?"

"For you? Always," I reply, looking at the boy opposite of me in anticipation. "And don't worry, I'll just flop down and listen to some music."

A smile washes over his features, and he slowly gets to his feet, grabbing his backpack in the process.

"Great, meet me outside of the dormitory when the moon's up, okay?"

His eyes sparkle mysteriously, but he doesn't give me a chance to ask any questions. With a quick wave accompanied by a sweet smile, he tells his goodbye and walks off, leaving me with a churning curiosity.

Softly nibbling on on my lower lip, my mind starts to trail off, wondering what Minho has in mind. But I know that I can only speculate, and the only way to find out is through that one thing I genuinely suck at.

Waiting.

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a bit of a short filler oops–

what is your favorite song? pick only one 👀

this is mine
imlay – asteroid (ft. yangyang of wayv)

i hope someone knows that song aaaa i literally rant about it everywhere i go but i love it so much and it deserves so much more appreciation i'm sorry 👉👈