WinterIron one shots

Always

Word count: 400

Summery: with the weight of Bucky's suffering pulling him down , everything gets too much .... and it's impossible for him to smile... how can he tell tony how he really feels...

Small Drabble...
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Tony was still when he slept, peaceful. There was something serene in his face when the masks dropped off, when he lay open and quiet in Bucky's bed.

He had long since passed out after several days in the lab on a mad creating binge. Bucky had practically carried the smaller man up to bed, not without protest. Upon touching his head to a pillow, though, Tony had fallen asleep instantly. It was almost comical.

Bucky was in a melancholy mood, the kind that sunk its hooks into him at night and didn't want to let go. It would dissipate in the morning, when Tony was all smiles in his lap and he couldn't not smile back, when the world was light and awake again, but he was loathe to wake Tony to kickstart the process. Tony got so little sleep as it was.

Bucky traced a finger across the arch of his boyfriend's cheekbone down to his lips. He pushed Tony's hair back from where it had fallen in his eyes, the curls easily yielding to his attention. Tony didn't stir, not even a little bit.

Maybe his complete unconsciousness loosened Bucky's tongue, maybe it was his own exhaustion.

"I wish you could see how much you mean to me," he whispered, painfully in love. "You act like your life doesn't matter, like you don't matter, and it kills me, baby. You give yourself away until there's nothing left because someone told you, at some point, that that was how to get people to love you. But doll, you don't have to give me a thing; you are enough.

"One of these days," Bucky smiled through the pain in his heart. "You're gonna throw yourself on a bomb, or give too much of yourself away, and I'm gonna lose you. And that's going to destroy me. I am so in love with you, Tony Stark, more than I think you and your genius brain comprehend."

Tony didn't move. His breathing was deep and even as Bucky slipped into bed behind him, pulling him against his body.

"Love you, Tony," he said, closing his eyes against the tidal wave of emotion. "Always."