Mixed Signals

Broken

Music
Halsey_without me
Rihana_stay

I got home at around 13:45 and I used my spare key that my dad gave me to open the door and loneliness instantly hit me like a wave. This is it this is my peace. There is something I find comforting in silence. I feel more like myself when I'm alone because no one can judge me and no one can tell me what to or what not to do.

Just as I found some peace finally, I heard footsteps and behold her annoying-ness barged into our house with her loud and squeaky voice. She is none other than Aunty Jai our neighbor that fought through blood, swearand tears to fit into our family and she did. Immediately she frantically pushed the door with Abdou Latif right behind her and yelled "Yw tey morm tell nga wacha d" I feel bad for my ears. what else could I have said if not "waw deng tella wacha" with a straight face what can I say I've mastered the art of lying so effortlessly.

I live with my single dad and my little brother Abdou Latif and he is the sweetest, most annoying evil person on earth I mean there is something about sibling relationship that you want to kill each other but you won't let anyone kill them except you. You can't understand if you don't have a sibling. Aunty Jai is a sweet middle aged divorcee that lives alone next door but boy is she loud and she always seems to be in a good mood and I seriously can't relate . She has always been there for us but I think she secretly likes my dad and my dad pays no attention to her 'sigh' old people love. My mom left when Abdou Latif was just one year old because she said she has her whole life ahead of her and she had dreams to chase which were apparently more important than her family! .

After hours of aunty Jai yelling back and forth with Latif she finally left to go to her house and Latif went to bed  after playing ps3 thankfully. Don't get me wrong I really like aunty Jai but I just can't stand how she is always in a good mood especially today that I feel a tormoil of emotions. As I sat on my messy bed the events of the day at school started playing on my mind like a broken record. I can't believe I actually slapped Amina but it was her fault she pushed me first and I acted on impulse. I remember two months back I got into trouble for talking back at a teacher and they almost suspended me for a week. If my dad didn't plead with the principal I would have had my third suspension from that school damn if I didn't get good grades I would have been expelled. What if that stupid bitch reports to the school administration I could get expelled. I need to do something.

Just as I was thinking of it my phone beeped and it's a call from Muhammed in my class
"hello son cloneka" he is such a breath of fresh air
"Mangi nii teda yw nk"I responded
"hana tey danga buguna rey nitt" he added
"buma yabb yw so nakala dafma report walla"  I asked eagerly
"dadet damakou wahh mu bala la" and instead of saying thank you like a normal person I replied
"man dama falleh koku"
"Yangi bahh so aleg danga nyow ahh"
"waw dina nyow kanj"
"Yeah so bai ma bai la beh tums"
"Okay bye" i hang up the phone and let out a breath I didn't know I was holding

We only have this week of school before the school tells us to study from home which is good because I won't see my two ex friends. Muhammed has been talking me into going for night classes at Nusrat and now more than ever I'm thinking of going since I suck at Math. Now I can have my diva moment so I turned on the speakers with doja cat's juicy blasting of course I dance duhhh!

Saihou's pov
Just like I was hoping these Ndow's boys ain't shit at basketball. Im on my bed right now and I can't stop thinking about Binta. She has been ignoring my messages all day and I didn't see her at school. I can get any girl I want at school even her own friends but I only want her and she seems to be the only girl that has ever treated me like this.

Thinking of all this I ended up falling asleep I really needed that. After I woke up I received a message from her finally I really don't know how long I can go without talking to her but what I wrote broke me in many ways than one.

Hi I don't think I can continue with this relationship I've tried to love you but I can't so bye and please don't reply my boyfriend won't like that.

Every word I read from this text shattered me I have been through a lot of pain but this is almost unbearable. My breathing was almost shallow and my palms are sweaty. How can she do something like this to me she just ripped my heart out of my chest and stepped on it. It hurts so bad no girl has ever broken up with me since I started dating and who does she even think she is.

Just as I was thinking of all the memories I shared with Binta. I heard a knock on my door and before I said come in my mom is already in my room she can't even let me be heart broken in peace . I don't know why she knocks if she is not going to wait for a response.
"hana gissulor audio bumala send" she asked
"Ma, hana lan mor hew att" I enquired
"deglu kou rk" she pressed
"Bahna" I replied.

Sometimes I feel like my mom is part of some whatsapp mother's cult because of all the audios and videos she sends me.  Reluctantly I pressed play and I just wasted two minutes of my life listening to something that makes no sense when I could be wallowing in self pity. The lady in the audio said I should send the audio to fifteen people or fifteen of my relatives would die of starvation ohhhh for fuck's sake. This just made me laugh a little. You would think a woman as educated as my mom wouldn't believe in this but the African in her does.

Hi guys these are the songs i added some songs you can listen to while you read Saihou's pov. Enjoy
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