Rise Till' We Fall [TAEGYU]

#1: He really is the hell of me

(Taehyun's POV)

Choi Beomgyu. My crush, my best friend, and the biggest idiot in this whole wide world. 

It's been two months since I discovered my "feelings" for him. It isn't deep, perhaps just lust, and I'm fairly curious about how this would end up being. It's like a tiny flame burning in my heart, I can always pinch it out and it would be over. I'm choosing not to right now, an irrational decision, but I've never been the type to regret things. What's the use of regret when you couldn't change it anyway? 

I share a dorm room with Beomgyu and Huening Kai on the third floor of the school dorms. Room #304, if you're curious. Gyu's corner is always messy, with a lot of papers and clothes on the floor and his bed is always unmade. Kai is the complete opposite to him, his bed is always clean and bedsheets tucked. I'm sort of in the middle. 

So today I was just brushing my teeth and I choked on toothpaste, which is disgusting, I hate the taste of toothpaste, but the glorious sight in front of me made me ignore the taste inside my mouth. 

Beomgyu was changing; he took off his pajama top and revealed his perfect abs and slim waist. His hair was ruffled from a night's sleep and he looked gorgeous with his pinkish lips so kissable. 

Forgive me for describing my best friend like that, even though it isn't the first time I saw him shirtless. We were basically brothers, used to take baths together 'til about twelve, so I'm fairly used to his body. It was only recently that his abs made me blush. What did he eat to grow so tall and so fit, by the way, I'm like a whole inch shorter than him. 

" I look good today, don't I?" Gyu said, flexing his biceps at me. It hurts to see him do that since I have a clear mind and I know that you only let down your guard and be so close to someone that you consider as a friend. You will try to give your crush the best side of yourself and act stiff around them. Kai said I should be a psychologist, by the way. 

" You're always beautiful," I said. " Yah--this friend!" he held his hand out for a fist bump and I gladly complied. I know that he would never ever like me the way I like him, and that's perfectly fine. It is. I already know that I will get over him. I'm Kang Taehyun, the sassiest queen in school, and I can get over a silly crush. 

Gyu wore a button-up shirt and jeans today, and he looked breathtaking even without makeup. I should really stop gushing over his every detail, right? This story must go on. 

So we arrived at class and I ignored him on purpose. I'm trying so hard to get his attention and he's just being naive and not getting my hints all the time--I won't let him go on this one. When he's poking my shoulder blade and playing with my hair, I kept my head near the table and pretended to sleep. 

I saw his smile falter and he whispered to my ear, " Tae, are you sick?" I waved him off and he retreated, his beautiful features looking troubled and hurt, and my heart was tightening and starting to feel painful. I just had to smirk, seeing him feel the way I always felt because of him and decided to go a little further, just seeing how far I could go. I put my arms around Kai, hugging him and resting my head on his shoulder, and peeked at Beomgyu. His face immediately fell and he turned away, then suddenly turned back and our eyes met. He couldn't have missed the mischievous glint in my eyes because he laughed softly and turned away for real this time. 

I didn't tell Kai what I was doing and he was obviously shocked at first, then he relaxed and held me back. I leaned back, out of his embrace and sat on my seat, just as the teacher came in and started to roll call. 

" Choi Beomgyu," " Here," and I couldn't resist peeking at him again. He looks really troubled and I wanted to laugh out loud. I know that he's troubled only because his best friend is ignoring him, but I enjoyed his discomfort kind of like the taste of payback. It tastes bittersweet and I like it, I know that it's kind of evil for me to enjoy somebody else's unhappiness, but there's no harm in it, right? 

After class, he catches up on Kai and I walking in front of him. Kai's in a really happy mood and I can tell, so I told him to leave first and he left. Gyu tugged on my sleeve and I turned around, facing him. He suddenly cups my cheeks with his hands and his forehead touches mine, the warmth making me freeze on the spot. He stared at me, an emotion I can't pinpoint in his eyes, and let go just as suddenly as his previous action. 

" Your forehead is so warm, I think you have a fever, let's go to the nurse," he said, genuine concern laced in his voice, and I cursed under my breath. How can I allow my cheeks to heat up like that? And how could he be so calm and so stupidly concerned about my health when he could lean in and our lips would touch? And how could I think he's going to kiss me? 

I quickly regained my posture and smiled at him. " I'm fine, look at me I'm smiling, I'm really fine." Gyu looked at me one more time closely and I thought I would have a heart attack, then he took my hand and tugged me towards the exit. " If you're fine then let's go play basketball," he said cheerfully, and I just had to roll my eyes and curse myself for thinking too much. 

Choi Beomgyu is really the hell of me.  

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This is my first fanfic so please give me some advice in the comments! 

By the way, the picture I put on the top is absolutely adorable I want to cry ;)