Rise Till' We Fall [TAEGYU]

#11: The kiss

(Taehyun's POV)

I loved how Gyu responded to my hand on his waist. I mean, teasing him is such a fun thing to do. He's always so shy around me, which is so cute. 

But I'm letting myself be too happy, too hopeful. He's still straight after all. You know, sometimes I want him to stay straight just for the sake of pride. I can take the blow easier if he doesn't like me not because I'm not good enough for him, but because I'm not his preferred sexual orientation. I can sit back and watch Gyu grow up as I do......we can be friends till we're old and see each other's family. It's going to be painful though. If I never see him again it'll be easier to forget the warmth, the happiness, the good times. 

Enough sulking. It's all going to be fine......even if he doesn't like me back. It's probably the scenario that's going to happen if I confess right now. Not that I'm going to do it. 

I checked my phone while studying back in our dorm. We left shortly after two and Gyu went playing basketball, so it's just me. The afternoon sunlight shone into my window as I worked through math problems. 

After several failed attempts of concentration, I gave up with a sigh. I hate math. It's already hard when I can focus; it's impossible to do with my mind occupied. I checked the clock reading at 4 o'clock and stood up to ly on my bed. Everything just feels so detached and uninteresting lately, with the weight of my so-called crush on Beomgyu, this is starting to get unbearable. 

The front door clicked open as somebody came into our dorm. A soft thud while the door closed. The faint clink of keys being set on the plate. The sound of the closet opening and closing. Something being set on the ground. Footsteps. The bathroom door being opened. Water splashing. More splashing and towel sounds. More footsteps. Then the distinctive water sounds of our showerhead. After some minutes, somebody knocked on my door. 

"Tae?" Beomgyu peeked through the narrow slit of the door. "Hmm?" I replied. " Can I use your hairdryer? I can't find mine," he asked. "Fine," I said, getting off my bed and going through my drawers. I gave it to him and sat back on my bed with a book. 

"Can you......?" "What?" "My arms are sore......Please?" "You're not three." "Please? I got something for you." "......Fine."

I got up and sat behind him, holding the hairdryer in one hand. I plugged it in.

I ran my hands through his luscious, wet hair as warm blasts of air hit the back of my hand. Gyu sat there like a giant puppy in a white t-shirt reading "hello_world". I inhaled the sweet scent of mint and grass, calming my nerves. It's going to be okay if everything just stays like this. Me being his best friend. It's gonna be alright. I can go through this. This beautiful afternoon can't be tainted by my thoughts, can't it?

Gyu suddenly turned around as I set the hairdryer down. His gaze sort of darkened a bit, meeting with my perhaps surprised one. Then all of it exploded as he practically slammed his lips onto mine. 

I drop onto my bed on my back, lips still connected with Gyu's soft warm ones. His hands gripped my wrists and pinned them to the soft mattress as his tongue worked furiously against mine. After the shock factor ended I found my mouth moving against his, relishing the warmth of it, memorizing the tavern of wetness as I broke free from his grip, my hands settling on his cheeks, deepening the kiss. 

He was hovering over me, his intoxicating scent overpowering my senses. My hands traveled to his soft, still wet hair as a soft moan escaped my throat. His mouth left mine and licked a messy path to the nape of my neck, leaving sloppy kisses along the way. Purple and pink bruises blossomed on my skin while my fingers caressed his sharp features, eyes fluttering shut. 

Just as his fingers started to roam on the buttons of my shirt, I pushed him away, hair disheveled and lips pink and swollen. A glimpse of hurt flashed through his eyes. Then there was silence. 

"What was that?" I asked softly. 

"Nothing," he said, avoiding my stare. With that, he stood up abruptly and left. 

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So......what do you think? I'm worried this might be a little rushed so......

It's my first time writing a kissing scene though, so I sort of combined all the fanfiction I read before and kaboom! I even googled "how to write a kissing scene" though. 

Also please go check out "Smyang Piano" on Youtube! This channel has a lot of piano covers of kpop songs. My favorite from them is their "lofi hip hop radio - gentle beats to relax/study/sleep to" stream. I always listen to it when I want to be productive.