Rise Till' We Fall [TAEGYU]

#10: Your touch

(Beomgyu's POV)

I'm going to sound like a pervert but I don't care. I was actually excited when Yeonjun dared me to do that with Taehyun. I mean, not like that kind of kinky excitement, it's sort of like a giddiness in my stomach. He's my friend, I kept reminding myself, just friends. Nothing else. Nothing. 

The closet is dark and warm, and I can feel Taehyun next to me. His mere presence made me blush and self-conscious, which is not normal. Do I like him? He'd always been the one to comfort me when I'm sad, cheer me up when I'm down. Not to mention the feelings I started to manifest.....This is all spiraling out of my control. 

The worst thing is that I know Taehyun has a crush on somebody else. If I like him, there'd be no way we'd have any chance together. How do gay crushes work anyways? I still consider myself straight though, but if I like Taehyun, a guy like me, It means I'm at least bi if not gay. That's all really weird. Why am I thinking so much? 

Time in the closet went by really fast from my perspective. I barely had any time to enjoy myself when Yeonjun opened the door. I was grateful to leave the cramped closet--my 179 cm body can't keep that curled up position any longer--but I was sort of disappointed to have nothing happen. Yeah, I said that. 

My head is spinning and I'm having a headache because of the whirlwind of emotions in my heart. I feel like I just discovered something so new that it's shaking the foundation of my life, and I don't like it at all. 

Taehyun smacked Yeonjun with the chip bag. They were bickering as Soobin googled some truth or dare questions with his phone. I scooted closer to him and peered at his screen. Just as he finally settled on one list, somebody messaged him with Instagram. I watched as he clicked on that message that wrote, "Go to hell faggot", then swiftly deleted it.  

I stared at his screen with horror. I knew that Yeonjun had an account with almost one mil followers and he often features Soobin as his boyfriend, but I didn't know those people actually found Soobin's account and messaged him just for those homophobic shit. 

He must have seen my expression because he actually chuckled. "Get those a lot," he said. "Just ignore whatever they say. It's not even close to the truth anyway. They're just jealous I have Yeonjunie as my boyfriend. I just delete them. " He glanced at his boyfriend, who was having a pillow fight with Tae and whispered: "Sometimes I keep them though, to get cuddles from Junie." with a smirk.

I was sort of baffled that Soobin was so calm. I mean, I knew that gay people face a lot of hate in the modern world, but this is the first time I had experienced it. I'm scared, I admit, because I know I'm not even half like Soobin. 

"So, are we going to keep playing or not? " said Yeonjun. "Beomgyu, your turn to spin." I spun and it pointed to Yeonjun again. "Dare," he sighed. Taehyun walked over and sat between me and Soobin. "Dare him to call the school dating hotline and tell them there's a cockroach in our room," he said with a mischievous smile. Oh, how I missed this childish side of him. "Can we dare him to kiss me?" said Soobin. "No, you'll just end up in the bedroom and I'd have nothing to do," I replied. "Go with Tae's idea." "Oooh, so you like him now? You always have so many complaints but when it's him you're suddenly quiet......Your ears are pink, Gyu. "

Yeonjun banged on the table. "Are you guys done or not?" Soobin glared at him. "Quit the noise," he said. " We're gonna dare you to call the school dating hotline and tell them there's a cockroach in here. " "It's gonna be fun! Just call them~" I said. As Yeonjun reached reluctantly for the telephone, I felt someone scoot over to me and a hand snaking to my waist. 

My heart skipped a beat as I felt Taehyun's warm touch. I glanced at him, finding his gaze on the vase by the window. I quickly looked away and just sat there, a blush sitting obviously on my cheeks, with my crush hugging me. 

A million thoughts raced through my mind as I laid my head on his shoulder, him and I sitting there in the morning sun. Yeonjun and Soobin are still bickering, but in our world, everything is calm and......relaxed? We seem like melting into each other's touch, and when I snapped back to reality my hand was on Tae's waist too. 

"Hello, this is your love master Miss Valentine! How can I help you today?" a cheery voice came from the receiver. "Um, there's a cockroach in my room, I was wondering if you can help me?" "So kiddo...you have a crush on that cockroach?"

Yeonjun slammed the phone back to its original position and glared at Soobin, who was having a laughing fit. "That woman needs a raise. Wow, my boyfriend cheated on me with a bug~" Yeonjun looked desperate. "I love you baby, okay?" Soobin smacked Yeonjun on the arm and hid his face in one of the pillows. "I'm just joking," he said with a muffled voice. 

I smiled. They're the cutest couple I had ever met. But I can't help feeling a little empty, knowing that the kind of love they have will probably never happen to me.

Tae shifted and removed his hand. I looked at him and our glances accidentally met. I looked away quickly but he was still staring at me. Oh god, this boy is driving me crazy. 

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